I lie awake driving myself crazy thinking of you. I made a mistake when I let te go. I drive myself crazy, wanting te the way that I do.

You've still been avoiding Randy as much as possible, yet yearning for him più as days pass by. It's been a mese since te and Randy haven't detto a single word to each other.

**Randy's POV**

I'm such a mess! Look at me! Tossing and turning in my bed. It's been 5 hours since I've tried to go to sleep. **gets up and goes to the living room, watching TV** Ugh all these stupid soap operas. Isn't there anything good on? ...man...I was such a fool. How good was...

After a few weeks pass, you've been getting much sicker. te can feel it and te can see it. Whenever te look in the mirror, te see a pale face, small dark circles, and white lips. Your rosy cheeks have turned to paleness and nothing but paleness. You've been feeling much weaker and you've been sucking at pallacanestro, basket lately. Your coach notices and he talks with te about it.

Coach: So Jamie. How is it?
Jamie: ...you should know coach...I'm losing it.
Coach: What can te do Jamie? te need to rest. te can't play.
Jamie: What? But...but I Amore playing. I can't just stop.
Coach: Then at least you...

Chapter 11: Baby Boom

Jamie was nine months; Landon was working at a drug store and going to school.

One giorno Jamie walked to her father 's house.

Jamie knocked on the door and Camilla opened the door.

"Hello Mrs. Carter" detto Camilla

"Hello Camilla te look nice today" detto Jamie

"Thank you, your dad have been waiting for, please come in," detto Camilla

"Thank you" detto Jamie entering the house.

Jamie looked around the house some things changed and some things remained the same.

Jamie looked at the cucina there was Hegbert making la minestra, zuppa for lunch.

Jamie moved and she stands there watching her father...

Chapter 9: Breathe

Landon was running through the halls to see his father.

Landon didn't stop and he made it in the room, and there was Jamie holding to Worth's hand.

Landon looked at Jamie and Jamie's eyes are tearful.

"He's strong," detto Jamie

"I know he is," detto Landon

The peacemaker was going up and down.

Jamie looked at it and then she stands up and looked at Landon.

She kissed Landon.

"When he wakes te talk to him kay" detto Jamie

"Kay" detto Landon

Jamie left,

Landon stayed in the room and he looked at his father.

Landon pulled up a chair successivo to his father side.

Landon was just looking at him...

Landon saw his son walking to the car he looked visibly annoyed. A young blonde girl was talking to him she carried a bible her hair in a pony tail she wore jeans and and hoodie. She reminded him of... Jamie. He sighed as his son sat down in the car. Kevin was 15 and spending this week with him and the successivo with his mom. Anna he had met her in Collage they hadn't worked. ''That Jessie Annoys me sooo much'' he ranted.

''How so?'' Landon asked.

''She so perfect shes so nice, Luke called her a cagna today and she just promised to pray for him''. He stopped to take a breath. ''And that bible God''....

Chapter 14: Amore and Happiness

Jamie was getting changed to her black dress. She was putting on a little blush and she was putting on lip gloss. Hegbert comes in.

"Hey Jamie" detto Hegbert

"Hey dad" detto Jamie

"What's new with you?" asked Hegbert

"Oh nothing, Sunday Landon and I are coming for church, Britney sleeping over a Friends house," detto Jamie

"Can't wait to see te guys there," detto Hegbert

"Okay Britney should be in her room," detto Jamie

"Thanks sweetie" detto Hegbert

Landon came walking in the house and he saw Britney watching t.v.

Britney run up to Landon and she hugged him.

"Hey Brit how was...

***Randy's POV***

Randy sees te go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The immagini of te crying your cuore out, shouting that te wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce te husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's Friends were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor detto it was ok. He sees te sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits successivo to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for te da breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair successivo to your bed. te look around and te realize your in a hospital. te can't remember anything that happened to te before except the dizziness te felt back at Randy's house. te smile...

I Amore you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that te are my one and only last love.

The whole day, te and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. te guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and te hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's te again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your letto and gets under your covers. te follow right after and te baciare him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and te guys all go back to school...

Shawn: ciao Taylor. te think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. te should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: te should let go of Jamie. I mean te haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know te like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my Amore really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this Amore to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives te a dirty look. te get a bad feeling and she pushes te and says:

Lauren: Are te a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First te like him, then te break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are te trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. te detto te were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, te wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. te twitch and te quickly yet gently sposta Randy's hands off your waist. te leave the divano and te run to the bathroom and te head to the toilet. te just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, te look and te see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your letto and te plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. te look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give te what te deserve.

Brad is about to punch, punzone Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: ciao ciao hey!! What the hell is wrong with te Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE te try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though te might never be da my side again, I will never forget you. te won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come da me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt da te again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? te always cared for them più than te did for me o for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least te could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and te sit in the back sede, sedile of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like te Jamie. Not just as a friend but più than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, te just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want te to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want te to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want te to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. te hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't te understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, o can it be me in the successivo life time? Even if te promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway successivo to Shawn's car and te see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees te and Randy and te get out of the car with Randy. te quickly get Angie and te walk successivo to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to te and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole mese passed da and te and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. te and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and te spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, o hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do te wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days te going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so te won't be bored....

As time goes da you'll be able to forget everything...

You've been getting closer with the group while getting farther from Shawn. te don't even bother hanging out with him when te see him around school. te just walk with Randy and the rest of the group (you and Randy have every single class together and 6th period too). te and Randy have been getting pretty close and te guys can crack jokes to each other now. In 6th period, te go to your coach and te give him the note from the doctor. te look at the coach's expression while Leggere it and he looks like 0,0...

Coach: Sullivan...
Jamie:...

**basketball:6th period**

You and the varsity team are all practicing drills and today for some reason, te feel really out of breathe and dehydrated. On your water break, te gulp down your whole water bottle but te still feel dehydrated. te feel dizzy and te fall on your knees.

Coach: Sullivan!! Get your behind over here!!

You try to get up but te can't. te just fall right back down to your knees and the assistant coach goes to you, Tommy.

Tommy: What's wrong Jamie?
Jamie: I feel dizzy.
Tommy: Why don't te sit down. Do te need water?
Jamie: Y-yah...

Tommy gets te cold water and te gulp it...