Cal was driving over to Gillian's . He kept going over and over in his head about what he was going to say to her. He kept thinking about what she was going to say him? What did she need to say? And how exactly was he going to tell her the truth?
"Torres?"
"Yes Loker?"
"What are te doing?"
"What does it look like?"
"Foster told te to let it go. Do te want to lose your job?"
"No."
"Well it looks that way to me"
"Look i just wanna know what is so special about this feather and why Lightman has been recitazione the way he has. We have a right to know he's our boss"
"Well he won't be for much longer if te don't stop interfering"
"Look are te going to help me o just stand there and give me lecture?"
"I'll help but if we get caught i'm blaming it all on you"
"Fine. Let's get to work"
Cal pulled up outside Gillian's house and he sat in the car for a long time. He kept thinking about what would happen if he told her the truth. If they had a fight, everything would be complicated and nothing would go back to normal and he didn't want that. Sure he felt things for Gillian but in the state he is in would he want to ruin their friendship?
"Dad?"
"Hey Em"
"How did it go?"
"What?"
"Your conversation with Gillian?"
"I... couldn't ..."
"You didn't go in?"
"No"
"Why?"
"I just... i couldn't do it...i wanted to... my body was wanting to sposta but my head detto no.. i don't want to wreck our friendship"
"You won't"
"With my current situation and mood swings? One argument and that's it."
"That won't happen"
"And what if it did? It would never be the same"
"Yes it would because te two are really good Friends and te would never let anything come between that"
"I suppose......No it can't happen"
"What?"
"It can't happen....ever"
"Dad?"
"Look just leave me alone Em"
Cal went upstairs to his room and shut the door. Emily followed him and waited a moment before entering his room
"Cal..i know te probably won't get this message until the morning but.... i was just worried te didn't come over and i was wondering if everything was okay?... Look just call me when te get this.. please Cal..."
"Dad?"
"I'm in the bathroom"
"You okay?"
"Yeah i'm fine darling"
"You look...awful"
"Thanks Amore te too"
They both laughed and Emily went over to check on him. He felt hot and he looked really pale.
"What?"
"Dad let me see your back"
"Why?"
"Please"
"Fine"
Cal lifted his camicia up and Emily was in shock at what she saw. It was covered in blood and feathers were growing all over it. They had come out even further than before. Emily didn't know what to do. She decided to get a cloth and clean the blood off first.
"Okay just hold still"
"Okay"
"What?"
"When did te get so grown up?"
"Well i had to learn from mum cause let's face it te still act like a five anno old"
"I do not"
"Mph....."
"What is it?"
"Nothing"
"No come on darling"
"Can i ask te something?"
"Yes sure anything"
".......Gillian....."
"Yeah?"
"How do te feel about her?"
"What?"
"..Do te Amore her?"
"I don't have to answer that Em"
"Your deflecting"
"I am not"
"Come on dad te are so deflecting"
"Look Em just drop it"
Cal got up of the bathroom floor and moved to walk towards the door and go downstairs but Emily followed him
"See.. your doing it again..acting like a five anno old sticking your fingers in your ears hoping that the noise will stop well it won't. This won't go away dad just accept it.."
"I don't have to"
"Yes te do, te have accept the fact that their are things te are going to feel and te have to deal with that. te are grown up for blood sake so act like one"
"EM!"
"What? what are te going to do? Shout at me again, te seem to be doing that a lot. te know none of this would have happened if te went to Gillian. All of your feelings would be out the open and te wouldn't be so angry with me"
"So what? te know my feeling better than i do, do you? Well guess what Em te don't te are still a little girl and te won't ever understand how this feels.."
"I am not a little girl anymore i am sixteen years old dad so stop treating me like one. And yes i do know your feeling better than te do because i can clearly see that te have feelings for Gillian"
"No i don't"
"Yes te do just admit it"
"Em"
"Just say it"
"Stop this right now"
"No until te say it"
"Fine i have feelings for her no wait i'll go one better for you.. i Amore her is that want te want to hear? I Amore her...I...Love ....her"
Cal then stopped to think about what he had just said. He DID Amore her. He loved her and he wanted to be with her. He wanted to be there for her no matter what happens. He was hopelessly and deeply in Amore her
"So why don't te say it to her face"
"I'm scared"
"It's okay to be scared Dad"
"I don't want to lose her Em"
"You won't i promise"
They hugged each other to say sorry and they stayed like this for a while
"Torres just give up we are never going to find anything"
"You don't know that"
"No i don't but it looks pretty likely"
"I guess your right"
"So will te stop?"
"Yeah i guess so"
"Good now lets get out of here go get something to eat like normal people do"
"We are not normal"
"Doesn't mean we can't try to be"
"True"
The successivo giorno at work Cal was ready to tell Gillian how he felt he wasn't too sure how he was going to do it but he knew that he was ready and that he wanted this
"Come in"
"Hey"
"James?"
"Hey Gillian"
"What are te doing here?"
"I was in the city and i thought why not come and see you"
"That's nice of you"
"So is it Gillian o do te still go da Ann?"
"Oh yeah it's Gillian now"
"I always like your first name"
"I remember te saying that"
"It's good to see you"
"You too"
James went in and hugged her and she hugged him back. He wrapped his arms around her waist and she put hers around his shoulders. Cal then walked right into her office without knocking as usual and was a little taken aback about what he had seen
"Cal?"
"Hey Foster. I don't remember hiring te though mate."
"Cal this is James he's one of my childhood friends"
"Funny how you've never talked about him before"
"Well i'm sure she had good reasons.Well it's good to meet te Cal"
"Dr Lightman too te buddy"
"Okay Cal can talk to te in the hallway for a second"
"Sure"
"What is your problem?"
"Nothing"
"Then why act like a total culo to James when te don't even know him"
"I just don't get a good vibe from him"
"Why? Because he was hugging me?"
"No"
"Then what?"
"Never mind"
"Why did te walk straight into my office without knocking? te don't normally do that unless it's something important"
"It doesn't matter anymore"
Cal turned and walked away from her. He kept thinking about what he saw in the office. He could tell from the hug that they used to be intimate. So why was he back here and why was she hugging him like that. Well there was one thing he knew for certain. Foster had made a choice
"Torres?"
"Yes Loker?"
"What are te doing?"
"What does it look like?"
"Foster told te to let it go. Do te want to lose your job?"
"No."
"Well it looks that way to me"
"Look i just wanna know what is so special about this feather and why Lightman has been recitazione the way he has. We have a right to know he's our boss"
"Well he won't be for much longer if te don't stop interfering"
"Look are te going to help me o just stand there and give me lecture?"
"I'll help but if we get caught i'm blaming it all on you"
"Fine. Let's get to work"
Cal pulled up outside Gillian's house and he sat in the car for a long time. He kept thinking about what would happen if he told her the truth. If they had a fight, everything would be complicated and nothing would go back to normal and he didn't want that. Sure he felt things for Gillian but in the state he is in would he want to ruin their friendship?
"Dad?"
"Hey Em"
"How did it go?"
"What?"
"Your conversation with Gillian?"
"I... couldn't ..."
"You didn't go in?"
"No"
"Why?"
"I just... i couldn't do it...i wanted to... my body was wanting to sposta but my head detto no.. i don't want to wreck our friendship"
"You won't"
"With my current situation and mood swings? One argument and that's it."
"That won't happen"
"And what if it did? It would never be the same"
"Yes it would because te two are really good Friends and te would never let anything come between that"
"I suppose......No it can't happen"
"What?"
"It can't happen....ever"
"Dad?"
"Look just leave me alone Em"
Cal went upstairs to his room and shut the door. Emily followed him and waited a moment before entering his room
"Cal..i know te probably won't get this message until the morning but.... i was just worried te didn't come over and i was wondering if everything was okay?... Look just call me when te get this.. please Cal..."
"Dad?"
"I'm in the bathroom"
"You okay?"
"Yeah i'm fine darling"
"You look...awful"
"Thanks Amore te too"
They both laughed and Emily went over to check on him. He felt hot and he looked really pale.
"What?"
"Dad let me see your back"
"Why?"
"Please"
"Fine"
Cal lifted his camicia up and Emily was in shock at what she saw. It was covered in blood and feathers were growing all over it. They had come out even further than before. Emily didn't know what to do. She decided to get a cloth and clean the blood off first.
"Okay just hold still"
"Okay"
"What?"
"When did te get so grown up?"
"Well i had to learn from mum cause let's face it te still act like a five anno old"
"I do not"
"Mph....."
"What is it?"
"Nothing"
"No come on darling"
"Can i ask te something?"
"Yes sure anything"
".......Gillian....."
"Yeah?"
"How do te feel about her?"
"What?"
"..Do te Amore her?"
"I don't have to answer that Em"
"Your deflecting"
"I am not"
"Come on dad te are so deflecting"
"Look Em just drop it"
Cal got up of the bathroom floor and moved to walk towards the door and go downstairs but Emily followed him
"See.. your doing it again..acting like a five anno old sticking your fingers in your ears hoping that the noise will stop well it won't. This won't go away dad just accept it.."
"I don't have to"
"Yes te do, te have accept the fact that their are things te are going to feel and te have to deal with that. te are grown up for blood sake so act like one"
"EM!"
"What? what are te going to do? Shout at me again, te seem to be doing that a lot. te know none of this would have happened if te went to Gillian. All of your feelings would be out the open and te wouldn't be so angry with me"
"So what? te know my feeling better than i do, do you? Well guess what Em te don't te are still a little girl and te won't ever understand how this feels.."
"I am not a little girl anymore i am sixteen years old dad so stop treating me like one. And yes i do know your feeling better than te do because i can clearly see that te have feelings for Gillian"
"No i don't"
"Yes te do just admit it"
"Em"
"Just say it"
"Stop this right now"
"No until te say it"
"Fine i have feelings for her no wait i'll go one better for you.. i Amore her is that want te want to hear? I Amore her...I...Love ....her"
Cal then stopped to think about what he had just said. He DID Amore her. He loved her and he wanted to be with her. He wanted to be there for her no matter what happens. He was hopelessly and deeply in Amore her
"So why don't te say it to her face"
"I'm scared"
"It's okay to be scared Dad"
"I don't want to lose her Em"
"You won't i promise"
They hugged each other to say sorry and they stayed like this for a while
"Torres just give up we are never going to find anything"
"You don't know that"
"No i don't but it looks pretty likely"
"I guess your right"
"So will te stop?"
"Yeah i guess so"
"Good now lets get out of here go get something to eat like normal people do"
"We are not normal"
"Doesn't mean we can't try to be"
"True"
The successivo giorno at work Cal was ready to tell Gillian how he felt he wasn't too sure how he was going to do it but he knew that he was ready and that he wanted this
"Come in"
"Hey"
"James?"
"Hey Gillian"
"What are te doing here?"
"I was in the city and i thought why not come and see you"
"That's nice of you"
"So is it Gillian o do te still go da Ann?"
"Oh yeah it's Gillian now"
"I always like your first name"
"I remember te saying that"
"It's good to see you"
"You too"
James went in and hugged her and she hugged him back. He wrapped his arms around her waist and she put hers around his shoulders. Cal then walked right into her office without knocking as usual and was a little taken aback about what he had seen
"Cal?"
"Hey Foster. I don't remember hiring te though mate."
"Cal this is James he's one of my childhood friends"
"Funny how you've never talked about him before"
"Well i'm sure she had good reasons.Well it's good to meet te Cal"
"Dr Lightman too te buddy"
"Okay Cal can talk to te in the hallway for a second"
"Sure"
"What is your problem?"
"Nothing"
"Then why act like a total culo to James when te don't even know him"
"I just don't get a good vibe from him"
"Why? Because he was hugging me?"
"No"
"Then what?"
"Never mind"
"Why did te walk straight into my office without knocking? te don't normally do that unless it's something important"
"It doesn't matter anymore"
Cal turned and walked away from her. He kept thinking about what he saw in the office. He could tell from the hug that they used to be intimate. So why was he back here and why was she hugging him like that. Well there was one thing he knew for certain. Foster had made a choice
