Chapter 3
Nov. 24, 1987
I wake up to bad 80's Musica and the smell of beer. I look to see that there is the bus driver. I look up at him and rub my eyes. He smiles.
"Morning miss I hate to bother te but te been on this bus ever since mid night and well...I came to collect pay"
"Well that's very kind of te sir to say that but at this time I really do not have any money to give you. Nor do i have any money to even give myself. I am sorry."
"Well I am sorry miss but I will have to call the cops then."
"Go ahead its not like I am not wanted da them already.."
"What was that remark mam?"
"Nothing"
I sat still and watched him make his way up to the front of the bus and reach for his bus phone. I saw a piece of broken glass on the floor so I picked it up and hid it behind my back. I started to walk slowly toward the front. Like a pantera stalking his pray...slowly...then I took the glass and stabbed him right through his wind pipe. The blood was warm as it hit my face. And I took the glass and did it again. I saw hat his facial expression was the same one that Matt had made when I had stabbed him. He then turned around grabbed the collare of my camicia and tried to say something. Although the word was not very clear it sounded as if he detto "thank you"
Once again I had done something I shouldn't have done. So I started to run again. I ran into a thrift negozio and looked around.
" may I help te miss?" The man said.
"No..no one can help"
Then his smile quickly dropped and he turned around.
"Wait. Maybe te can. Do te guys sell switch blades here?"
He turned back around and started to speak.
"Yes. They are over there in that back corner."
"Great. What about lipstick? o any black clothing?...wigs maybe?"
"yes. Over there. Are te alright miss?"
"yes never been better. te have a nice giorno sir"
'Uhhh..thanks te to..'clears throat' miss
I walk out of the store and into a dark alley..then I see a deserted old hotel so i welcome myself in. I look around. No one here so might as well live here. So i go up the dusty old steps and into the bathroom. I looked into the cracked glass and smile. Then I dressed myself and caked my face with makeup.
"Show time"
To be continued...
"Thanks...and te to mam"
I was as good as an actress as it was gonna get. Amazingly he actually fell for it.
Nov. 24, 1987
I wake up to bad 80's Musica and the smell of beer. I look to see that there is the bus driver. I look up at him and rub my eyes. He smiles.
"Morning miss I hate to bother te but te been on this bus ever since mid night and well...I came to collect pay"
"Well that's very kind of te sir to say that but at this time I really do not have any money to give you. Nor do i have any money to even give myself. I am sorry."
"Well I am sorry miss but I will have to call the cops then."
"Go ahead its not like I am not wanted da them already.."
"What was that remark mam?"
"Nothing"
I sat still and watched him make his way up to the front of the bus and reach for his bus phone. I saw a piece of broken glass on the floor so I picked it up and hid it behind my back. I started to walk slowly toward the front. Like a pantera stalking his pray...slowly...then I took the glass and stabbed him right through his wind pipe. The blood was warm as it hit my face. And I took the glass and did it again. I saw hat his facial expression was the same one that Matt had made when I had stabbed him. He then turned around grabbed the collare of my camicia and tried to say something. Although the word was not very clear it sounded as if he detto "thank you"
Once again I had done something I shouldn't have done. So I started to run again. I ran into a thrift negozio and looked around.
" may I help te miss?" The man said.
"No..no one can help"
Then his smile quickly dropped and he turned around.
"Wait. Maybe te can. Do te guys sell switch blades here?"
He turned back around and started to speak.
"Yes. They are over there in that back corner."
"Great. What about lipstick? o any black clothing?...wigs maybe?"
"yes. Over there. Are te alright miss?"
"yes never been better. te have a nice giorno sir"
'Uhhh..thanks te to..'clears throat' miss
I walk out of the store and into a dark alley..then I see a deserted old hotel so i welcome myself in. I look around. No one here so might as well live here. So i go up the dusty old steps and into the bathroom. I looked into the cracked glass and smile. Then I dressed myself and caked my face with makeup.
"Show time"
To be continued...
"Thanks...and te to mam"
I was as good as an actress as it was gonna get. Amazingly he actually fell for it.
Dear Obi,
It has been forever since i seen te last. When will te come home?
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Dear Lorrain,
I wish i could tell te how i feel.
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Dear Obi,
why dont te answer me back?
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Dear Lorrain,
Its hard to explain, i dont think i can make te understand.
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Dear Obi,
why what is it te want to say?
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Dear Lorrain,
I know we were Friends but i think i Amore you.
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It has been forever since i seen te last. When will te come home?
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Dear Lorrain,
I wish i could tell te how i feel.
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Dear Obi,
why dont te answer me back?
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Dear Lorrain,
Its hard to explain, i dont think i can make te understand.
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Dear Obi,
why what is it te want to say?
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Dear Lorrain,
I know we were Friends but i think i Amore you.
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PS: Its about a boy who loves his best friend but she doesnt Amore him back. I know its kind of an awkward thing but its just a beginning and i would like to know what te think.
Still I mostra No Pain
© Sarah
I don’t scream
I don’t mostra no fear
I mostra hate
My face was burning
I wanted to die
Pleasure themselves
But torture me
I don’t cry
Not giving them the satisfaction
Smacked around
Beat down
Still I mostra now pain
Harder and Harder
Still I mostra no pain
Cursing
Still I mostra no pain
Inside me
Still I mostra no pain
About 2 hours
Felt like a life time
Everything they hoped for they didn’t get
Until I got home
I cried my eyes out
In the shower
I cried my eyes out
On my bed
I cried my eyes out
Best Friends shoulder
I cried my eyes out
When ever I think about it
I cry my eyes out
When someone touches me
I feel it again
Until I’m aware that its someone I love
And I grow comfortable again
Source: Still I mostra No Pain, Rape Poems link
© Sarah
I don’t scream
I don’t mostra no fear
I mostra hate
My face was burning
I wanted to die
Pleasure themselves
But torture me
I don’t cry
Not giving them the satisfaction
Smacked around
Beat down
Still I mostra now pain
Harder and Harder
Still I mostra no pain
Cursing
Still I mostra no pain
Inside me
Still I mostra no pain
About 2 hours
Felt like a life time
Everything they hoped for they didn’t get
Until I got home
I cried my eyes out
In the shower
I cried my eyes out
On my bed
I cried my eyes out
Best Friends shoulder
I cried my eyes out
When ever I think about it
I cry my eyes out
When someone touches me
I feel it again
Until I’m aware that its someone I love
And I grow comfortable again
Source: Still I mostra No Pain, Rape Poems link
I know it's cheesy, but i have no other way to put it
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te see me cry,
te see me bleed,
te see my hurt,
so why wont te talk to me?
te see me look at te when te walk by,
when you're not looking, i sit and cry.
How does it feel,
when the one te love,
thinks you're a freak?
You're the person,
that makes me smile,
but also make me sad,
and when te smile,
at that other girl,
why does it hurt so bad?
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Tell me, are te in Amore with someone who thinks you're weird? Tell me..... Please, because when he walks da me, I feel like my world is falling apart because he doesnt even like me back :'(
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te see me cry,
te see me bleed,
te see my hurt,
so why wont te talk to me?
te see me look at te when te walk by,
when you're not looking, i sit and cry.
How does it feel,
when the one te love,
thinks you're a freak?
You're the person,
that makes me smile,
but also make me sad,
and when te smile,
at that other girl,
why does it hurt so bad?
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Tell me, are te in Amore with someone who thinks you're weird? Tell me..... Please, because when he walks da me, I feel like my world is falling apart because he doesnt even like me back :'(
(The Ones I love) My Family
I remember when we first met
And I remember te smiling
Can it be true?
That one day
te would be my everything
I remember growing up
I remember the laughter that we shared
And remember te taught me
to seize the moment
and one giorno I will prove to te and me
Can't be right
All m life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When te leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
Stay together forever
But I know that one day
You'll have to leave me all the same
I wonder if te know
How much I Amore you
And beleive that every word is true
You've watched me grow up strong
And I know it might seem wrong
But you've earned your rest
So rest your head and dream for me
Can't be right
All my life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When te leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
stay together forever
But I know that one giorno
You'll leavev me all the same
I remember when we first met
And I remember te smiling
Can it be true?
That one day
te would be my everything
I remember growing up
I remember the laughter that we shared
And remember te taught me
to seize the moment
and one giorno I will prove to te and me
Can't be right
All m life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When te leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
Stay together forever
But I know that one day
You'll have to leave me all the same
I wonder if te know
How much I Amore you
And beleive that every word is true
You've watched me grow up strong
And I know it might seem wrong
But you've earned your rest
So rest your head and dream for me
Can't be right
All my life you've been there for me
And I don't know what I'll do
When te leave me in the end
But I wish we could just
stay together forever
But I know that one giorno
You'll leavev me all the same