Outflow from a Peter Pan's believer

Hi everybody. I just need to outflow about my feelings. I am the Middle child so i grew up without a so much atention like that. I always was a lonely kid, yes i had Friends but i prefered to play alone in my corner with my doll. My other siblings are the center of attention at all single time. I dont care that much cause as I said, i am familiar with being alone. That situation made me close myself to meet another peoples cause i am kinda shy. In school i am not the popolare girl who all the boys try to flirt but i am not the nerd girl too. I am just...normal? I guess? I stopped believing in magic and stuff when i was 7 years. Now i am thirteen but my old psycologer made some mental age tests to me and actually my mental and physical age is sixteen. I hate this society te just can't have imperfections u know? And the men and part of the these days boys are just disgusting. I can't even count the times that i already be harassed. The last time was today when i was coming back to home cause i am sick and three seventy years men harassed me. I still have Friends a I Amore them but i think that they just understand me partly. In this year, 2019, i started believing in Peter again after seeing the Peter Pan' s movie 2003. The first time i saw that movie was when i was 5 years old. I finally understand how important is believing and yes i do believe in Peter Pan, in Tinkerbell, in Captain Hook!! The song "Lost boy"by Ruth.B helped me a lot too. I use to say that i am a Lost girl from Neverland Lost in this world. I am so done of all here, te know? I just want a new place, a new world! Like Neverland!! I still wait for the giorno that he will come into my window a take me there. The Earth doesn't has magic anymore. Just money, wars, distruction, pain, angry. This persons don't understand that the world is made of faith, trust and fairy dust. Here the teens have so many worries, we need to choose, so young, what we want to do for the rest of our lives. In Neverland...Well...Y