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But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks te into doing the first statement. postato più di un anno fa
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Honestly I just found out Pokemon Sun and Moon completely changed Lusamine's character to only be 90-95% of a shitty mother that she was in the game and totally pretty much entirely lightened the theme of abusive / toxic families seen in the game so....

Yeah that annoys me.

Some children have had shitty parents and stuff. It would be nice if they werent written off as "not kid friendly" o whatever postato più di un anno fa
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Gladion is precious postato più di un anno fa
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Honestly I do have to thank this bacheca and the people who read this. It gives me a place to process a lot of stuff and really makes me feel at peace and comfortable.

Its probably part of why I got as far as I have with my mental health postato più di un anno fa
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Im not really watching American Idol but my mom has been and all I gotta say is that Cade is a serious rock stella, star already.

Like wtf is he doing here?

Why isnt he already out there? postato più di un anno fa
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https://tinyurl.com/yao3batc

IRL foto of me and Wanta postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
LEFTERIS! WHY'D te TAKE A PICTURE! più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ It had to be done XD !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
This icona feel right XD

And it makes my posts on this bacheca a little più mausing postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
For furture reference it is this icon: link più di un anno fa
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Birds make me so happy postato più di un anno fa
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The thing about Scrivere and working through your own issues through your characters and words is that while it can be kind of problmeatic and unproductive for someone who dissociates like me, it really gives te a means to which te can express emotions, issues, etc that te cant really say outloud o express since it would either hurt other o cause problems, but in a peaceful and innocent and fun way. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
It isnt necessarily the best way to become the main one, but from time to time, with specific kinds of issues, it can be nice più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Just like reflecting upon characters te relate to and all più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
#WorkingThroughYourShitViaRPing postato più di un anno fa
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I dont get how people can have fun making out with strangers they meet and find attractive o whatever.

Cos apparently my middle sister likes that part of the club nightlife and all

And Im just like "y tho????" postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Is that like my lack of sex drive speaking o my introverted side speaking o a combination? XD più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Like I said, you'll end up having a libido for/with your significant other but not in general circumstances. più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Probably both. Also, what Wanta detto !!!! più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
I'm not the type to only use one name for a Pokemon. It's not like I will always name my Blastoises something specific o like that..

But Snorlax?...only one name will be allowed.

#Snorgasm postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Honestly though, the più I reflect upon Fushimi's character, the più I kind of really kind of see and personally feel the degree of which my family condition and my less... enjoyable experiences have warped my view of the world and relationships and behaviors and all that stuff.

Cos honestly... Fushimi and I have a lot of similar dynamics in past and a lot of similar dynamics in present. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Like Leggere analyses on his characters and one of the tumblr people I follow responding to "what if"s about him and explaining it, sometimes when his past and his family stuff get brought up a part of me kinda... like... gets that "this is too close to home" feeling which I kinda actually like since Im kinda trying to work though them più di un anno fa
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FINALLY SPRING BREAK postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I mean Im kinda busy still but sh più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Noice! Damn the fact that your Break starts right when mine is about to end though XD !!!! più di un anno fa
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*has 482 Gladion immagini to post on my club*

*already has 88 immagini on my club*

*not sure if theres overlap*

*does she have time to post all those?*

*also has like 300+ Fushimi immagini to post on her club*

*also has to make all the Gladion and Fushimi icons*

*might and likely still has yet to post some Danganronpa collections*

MY OBSESSIVENESS IS PACKED postato più di un anno fa
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I wonder what my flow chart for posting on this bacheca is...

Like what makes my brain go "We should post that on the wall" versus not even recommending / mentioning it. postato più di un anno fa
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I hate Youtube and how it triggers my loves.

I wanna play Pokemon, Danganronpa, and Hatoful Boyfriend right now and all three of them cant function together :v :v :v postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Doesnt help I also wanna write three side stories as well rn XD più di un anno fa
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Seriously yall need to check out Chase Holfelder.

If I had a constant income, I would totally give a portion out to support him on Patreon

He has a wonderful voice and makes great music. postato più di un anno fa
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I be all like

"Yay! Today is my giorno to relax. Lets RP, play video games, watch two episode s of anime, read three chapters of manga, listen to music, watch youtube, and hang out with a friend. I will allocate roughly an ora to each.

So lets get to relaxing starting with RP. Wanta hurry up and start so I dont waste time relaxing.

Okay good now onto-"

"You should chill and relax" postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
"IM TOTALLY RELAXING. I WROTE IT DOWN IN MY MENTAL SCHEDULE THAT IM RELAXING. LOOK ITS RIGHT THERE. I DONT HAVE TIME TO SIT DOWN AND DO NOTHING. I DONT HAVE TIME TO RELAX WHILE I SHOULD BE RELAXING. GOSH" più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Is that a hint that I should reply? più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
It is something that I have noticed as well. One più apparent fact about te XD !!!! più di un anno fa
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I usually cant nap in the giorno time since I am way too pressured da time and because Im just not comfortable sleeping during the time my brain allocates to doing things o around my family...

But at times, I come to the logical conclusion that da not getting rest and choosing to remain tired, I am greatly wasting time so I force myself to sleep as to satisfy and alleviate the time pressure I have XD postato più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
Riku is sleepy. Now is the time to post REALLY confusing things on here. postato più di un anno fa
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Tfw te vitello randomly wants to make a few minuto long super cramp at like .... five in the morning, leaving your leg to be super picky of how te sleep without pain, then te wake up later and it can barely hold any weight while walking postato più di un anno fa
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UGH LUSAMINE WHY DO I HATE AND Amore te SO MUCH

LIKE I WANT TO Amore YOU

BUT LIKE

te TORTURED MY GLADION, MY LILLIE, AND MY GUZMA

LIKE....

I HATE te SO MUCH BUT Amore te SO MUCH AND I HATE HAVING CONFUSED FEELINGS OVER CHARACTERS postato più di un anno fa
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TFW te arent sure if te are just mentally stable and in a good mood o if your brain returned to not trying to harass yourself with unpleasant situations and went back to deciding it was alright to let detto things remain forgotten. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Either way Im in a good mood so Ill leave figuring THAT out to my therapist più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
Riku: "Ask me anything!"

Wanta: *goes to Rikus blog*

Riku: "I DIDN'T MEAN IT STAHP!" postato più di un anno fa
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Most People: WHAT IF IT POOPS ON ME?!

Me: Awww whos a good boy Lucy- *notices my hand has poop on it* *sigh* Lucy really? Was that on your back o did te just let that one rip at some point? Go back to the cage. I have to go clean my hand. postato più di un anno fa
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te know a bird trusts te and loves yo uwhen they let te grab their head and neck, pull the mright up to your mouth and baciare their entire head

Lucy is just like ":3 Moms scratching me and gave me a baciare :3 Forget tht my most delicate part of my body is between her fingers and my head in her palm and up against her mouth" postato più di un anno fa
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I FINALLY GOT THE TAG PAGE TO WORK :v

IT ONLY TOOK ME LIKE TWENTY minuti TO GET THE FILTER FUNCTION TO WORK AND ANOTHER TWENTY minuti BEFORE IT TO REALIZE THE TAG THEME I WAS WORKING WITH JUST WOULDNT FIT WHAT I WANT

WOO

https://jaden-writes.tumblr.com/tags

LOOK te CAN CLICK THE SIDE BAR TITLES AND ITLL ORGANIZE THE TAG BOXES :V postato più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
Congrats xD. Seriously when I first started fiddling with themes there were aspects that gave me hell as well. Like using custom fonts lol. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
XD I almost always fiddle with themes. I like to thing Im pretty good at them..? I mean for an amateur that doesnt make her own XD più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
^Same XD più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
The più I think about it, the più I realize I am set in stone AGAINST ever using Mega Evolutions. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Also for those that didnt know, I set up a new blog for Scrivere fanfics and random stories. I might stick with it, I might not.

On there, for the sake of not sounding Kingdom Hearts focused and not using my real name, I decided Id go da the name Jaden XD

For now the url is jaden-writes.tumblr.com if yall wanna check out a mostly blank but set up blog. postato più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
I followed. Also I read your about and honestly I don't think riku is a cringey name. I can think of alot of names that are cringey. I think riku as a name is just chill really. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Oh yeah I know XD I just dont like having character names too much these days. Riku is fine to me cos like... Its pretty much almost as much of my name as my actual name (maybe even more, it used to be tbh). Its just that since Im starting off, I want to start fresh with a più normalish name XD più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Interesting. I followed as well. Looks nice. Can't help but wonder how that particular name came up XD !!!! più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
@Riku ^Fair enough. più di un anno fa
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God its been so long since I wrote anything remotely steamy o smutty.

Ive reverted from Scrivere it just as a naturally as anything else to going back to having to pause and figure it out. postato più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
Believe in the me that believes in your libido postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ !!!! più di un anno fa
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Yall ever post something in a light cuore and with the intention of specifically making a fun conversation o for some jokes to be made about it but instead it turns out to do the exact opposite?

But instead te of ":feelsbadman:" te are just più like

https://tinyurl.com/ybxak93e postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Quite honestly tho XD This happens too much with me più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Especially since I have a horrible sense of dark humor a lot of the time. Especially irl with people più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Most of the time, the exact opposite of the opposite te mentioned yourself happens to me !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Gosh making a blog theme look nice always takes hours... postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
I can imagine più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
It does più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
It sure can be tricky !!!! più di un anno fa
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I still sometimes wonder to what degree Im closer to being gay than straight.

Cos honestly, I think Im like 65-70% gay and 30-35% straight XD postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Enough pondering this strange topic tho XD più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Embrace the Gayness, dudette. unisciti the Prez's Side !!!! più di un anno fa
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I can also be a TOTAL flirt to girls if I want to be XD Literally spent a 10 ora Disneyland trip fake flirting with a lesbian cos my friend thought it was a good idea to invite a homophobe, a homosexual, and a bisexual together for her birthday. That of which when the homosexual and homophobe have poor waters with each other XD

10/10 would have kissed her just to make the homophobe uncomfortable if I wasnt a baciare virgin then. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I also dont really take baciare seriously o anything. It can be casual for me XD I just respect the wishes of my partner so Im not allowed to XD più di un anno fa
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Also, I little strange 'fun' idea since I heard about it on a Youtube video is being a bisexual polygamous dom with like... beta females and all.

Like I liked the idea of it and thought it would be interesting and a nice dynamic to have with people.

But then I take like... a bit to realize.

Im not really all that sexual.

I really wouldnt take action into it and might not like it because of the sex-based atmosphere XD postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Also lowkey sad I never got to baciare a girl XD Literally small stuff like that sometimes makes a small part of me be upset my relationship hasnt died XD più di un anno fa
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Personally, I never really understood how people see men and women seperately when it comes to crushes and all. That being said, I still dont get crushes, but I guess Ive been hardcore bi since before I knew it was a thing?

Cos it just doesnt make sense to me (I mean it makes logical sense, but when analyzing emotions it doesnt) for Amore to be specifically segregated da gender XD

Women can make my cuore tick - so can men. Gender rarely ever even remotely came into the picture postato più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
It's kinda simple. Sometimes te just know what te like. I know I cannot ever be pansexual o bi. It's not me. But I can understand why someone would be like that regardless. più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
If I was bi/pan I think I'd find nearly everyone fuckable/attractive dato how I am while straight. più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
What Blind said, pretty much. te just know it. It comes along naturally, I suppose !!!! più di un anno fa
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Me: We should write. Its getting late and we planned to do that today

Me: We should also go do our homework cos thats actually due

Me: Hmmmm.

Me: Lets just listen to Musica and shit post on our club. postato più di un anno fa
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*narrows eyes*

Some random website gave me advertisements for a Sarumi poster and Bird Treats. >.> Someones tracking my interests quite well postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Its a cute poster tho so Im not even mad più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
link più di un anno fa
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I like helping people.

The world is too dark for everyone to be going through it alone.

Friendship and connections are what brings light to the darkness and lets the world be beautiful and shine wonderfully.

If I could help bright light to someone's world, its one of the best things I could ask for. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I feel some people get so Lost in their own world that they often forget there are still people drowning in a dark abyss. Sometimes te are in there too, sometimes your world is a beautiful one full of light, but just being there for another person... regardless of if te are drowning in darkness o basking in the light, that spark could change someone's world più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
And there is little più rewarding than realizing te changed someone's world for the better più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
AMEN TO THAT POST! I share those feelings as well. Well said, Comrade !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I dunno if its a normal thing o not.... but does anyone else ever get the feeling they enjoy being.... like... depressed and mentally tortured più than being normal o happy at times..?

Like maybe its because being depressed, feeling like crap, and having poor mental stability has been with me so long that it almost developed as part of my identity, o becuase, as my therapist words it, I grew up in a constant "crisis" state at home...

But sometimes I feel like I miss being unstable. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Sometimes having a peaceful happy life feels so... odd, foreign, and just wrong and my mind does mention that its dull and boring even though I dont feel that way più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Its cause of this that sometimes Im tempted to let myself go just because for some reason going back to that mental state is oddly... beckoning. più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ Indeed. It is something that has really stood out, Riku !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Also people underestimate what it means to be on my good side and a team mate of mine. Cos like in Stats, I had to break up my group since we couldnt have groups of 5 and all, but back then I would bring Cibo and snacks and all for project days and share it with them and make sure they knew everything they were doing

But now that they are broken up, even though I stated that Im still going to treat them as if they were in my group, they dont bother coming da and asking for help? postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Like I reject a lot of people help, especially when I find the topic too easy o people keep asking me the same damn question, but I would like walk over to my old group and be like "So Luke, do te need any help? te do realize Ill always respond to te right?" più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I can be very cold and sometimes self centered with how I help people, but when Ive chosen people I like and people to be group members / team members / pack members, I will make sure they succeed and grow strong no matter what. I have a busy schedule and te need an ora of tutoring o help? I gotchya. te need più practice and involvement in band? I gotcha, Ill recommend te for the side things from now on. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
But yeah, out side of being a pack / team member of mine, the only other ways to get help from me is A) Im bored B) te are offering Cibo I like in exchange o C) money. più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Honestly...

I bond with people very animalistically XD postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Same. più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I so badly want all birds in the world to be happy and live happy lives.

I dont know why I feel so strongly about birds in specific, but just seeing like documentaries its like

UGH BIRDS. postato più di un anno fa
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I write to vent. I write to express and process emotions I otherwise would struggle with.

Personally Ive always struggled with it, but its really only through Scrivere that I could ever really truly make sense of what was going on

So its part of the reason I write as much as I do.

A lot of my 'articles' Ive written never got posted, either because they went to nonsensical places, o because they were to real and too personal postato più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
"Low carb diets aren't healthy if done for long periods of time."

Me: *sighs and facepalms at the misinformation being spread* postato più di un anno fa
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Me: *took Smokey out and shes hanging out on me*

Elvis, her mate: *crying and calling for her to come back*

Me: *sticks tongue out* SHE WAS MINE FIRST. te GET HER ALL giorno AND SHE USUALLY DOESNT WANT TO STAY WITH ME. LET ME ENJOY THIS postato più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
*tries to do some Pokemon Showdown*

"NO! te can't use this cuz Swagger clause."

"NO! te can't use this cuz evasion clause."

"NO! te can't have this sposta when combined with this other sposta the Pokemon can legitimately learn"

"NO!

"NO!"

"NO!"

And now I remember why I don't play competitive Pokemon. I'll stick with the più challenging PVE cuz tiers suck and "competitive" is kind of a joke postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
^That and sticking with just us XD più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Semi-competitively più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Tru più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I hate Wanta. He entices the devil in me postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
IVE CHANGED MY WAYS DAMN IT. I DONT NEED TO TORTURE MY CHARACTERS ANY MORE. IVE GROWN PAST IT BUT HE TEMPTS IT più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Okay not so much anymore but still. più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Honestly, there are so many people who have changed my life, I cant even thank them all.

Even the ones that gave me a 'negative' change in my life. I've learned so much from them too. postato più di un anno fa
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I personally owe a lot to animali to be honest.

Especially Smokey. She was there when no one else was and shes a wonderful sweet and pure cockatiel. I often talk about her son a lot, but shes the best bird in the world.

I Amore her so much. postato più di un anno fa
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Honestly, I might go into Conservation teams instead of Veterinarian, o be a Veterinarian for a zoo o something. I think the idea of rescuing endangered species, especially birds, sounds super fulfilling. postato più di un anno fa
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Made this forum which I may o may not use but wanted to advertise

link postato più di un anno fa
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But honestly, experiencing life is horrible XD

Stress is so much più extreme when your mind doesnt automatically numb it, depression is much più stinging and consuming when your mind doesnt block it out and choose to be happy after three secondi of it, etc

I mean it is worth it in the long run and even just in some aspects outside of the long run, but really... life was easy dissociated. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Its like "/testingcheatsenabled true" on sims where te can keep the health bar up da dragging it up. te can do wayyyy più than if te didnt use the cheat. Getting through each giorno is sooooo much easier for the most part. But the challenge of the game goes away and te get bored of it when te stop getting your sadistic pleasure from it più di un anno fa
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Honestly sometimes it amazes me.

The amount other people have to go through before their brain says "This is too much for me, we are disconnecting" and reach the point of dissociation Ive spent most of my life and especially my teenage years in.

It really makes me wonder how horribly overwhelmed, scared, and affected my brain was from things I still dont remember really o understand. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Mine is as bad as it is because it became an exercised coping mechanism throughout my childhood so Im much più prone to it, but even so. più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
Riku: Wanta truly has an expertise in Pokemon and can be questioned for advice!

Wanta: *using a Special Attacking Moxie Pyroar* postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
There is little più rewarding than helping someone out and watching them grow from it. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Heres an idea for self improvement. Think of one o two things te care a lot about o an activity te are interested and lista as many things of that in which te are lacking o suck at.

Rank those things te are lacking in priority to te and focus on working on something at least every other giorno and if te are really up for it, every day.

Youll be shocked at how much progress and mastery te can get da adding one o two things to the lista of things to work on daily postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
My main one is my mental health XD But I also do work towards Scrivere and creating più stable and sturdy relationships irl. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I think Ill soon get to adding stuff for the future as well like.... working on weights o whatever since I might need that if I end up working at a zoo for a bit during my educational career after I get a bachelor degree - o just complessivamente, generale to be healthy più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
I believe some Exercise in general should be pretty good for te indeed !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
“I created the OASIS because I never felt at home in the real world. I didn't know how to connect with the people there. I was afraid, for all of my life, right up until I knew it was ending. That was when I realized, as terrifying and painful as reality can be, it's also the only place where te can find true happiness. Because reality is real.” postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Sad I couldnt fit a Silvally into my profile.

Also

#HailLordLopunny postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
#HailLordLopunny'sChild più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
Riku has internet: https://avatars.mds.yandex.net/get-pdb/163339/397b0d96-585d-412c-9c67-46434db655cf/orig postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I AM BACK.

I HAVE INTERNET postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
YAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSS! WELCOME BACK FLUFF !!!! più di un anno fa
GDragon612 commentato…
yeheah!!!!! wb riku hun🌹 più di un anno fa
SilentForce commentato…
Glad to see that te have come back from the dead più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
Note: Consider changing the sentence in the eulogy to "but instead am glad to have gotten the opportunity to see her grow from a Derpy Lil Shit into an older, wiser, bustier, but not necessarily taller Derpy Lil Shit." postato più di un anno fa
sad
wantadog detto …
RIP Riku. May she pass on peacefully to the other side and immediately become way too busy. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Yall bore me. I come on and no stupid shit has been going on in the giorno o two I was mostly absent? postato più di un anno fa
Heartbeat- commentato…
Tbh I’ve been getting sick easily these days🤨 più di un anno fa
Heartbeat- commentato…
Welcome back 🌷 più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Hello bitches. Im at school and have internet here

Fuck yeah. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Ps. Im not dead postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
HOOLYYYYYY SHIEEEEEET! RIKU IS ACTUALLY ALIVE !!!! più di un anno fa
GDragon612 commentato…
yeah !!!!!!!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Now the real question. Will we ever get back to K? postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Someday, Riku. Someday... più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Soon enough XD !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I really do have some of the best people around me.

As someone who has been around multiple codependent Friends and my family the way it is, this is really nice.

Having a good group of Friends and a good community makes being depressed a quite harder. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
On a brighter note tho

On the field trip to the zoo yesterday, I impressed my classmates and my chaperones how skilled I was at identifying birds

Like I was better than the teachers XD

And apparently no one know what this "dinosaur looking bird with the weird beak"

link postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
I always loved that Bird XD !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
To put how exhausting this week has been, I usually wake up at an average time of 6:30 am on school days, run a normal school day, maybe go to someones house, do some homework, play games, and go to sleep around 11:30 pm o 12 am kind of tired.

I woke up at 10 am today, and its not even 9 pm yet and Im exhausted to the point it should be 2 o 3 am if the time was dependent on my energy levels postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
An early sleep could do te some good !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
OKAY I JUST REALLY HAD TO SAY THIS COS IT REALLY STOOD OUT TO ME

"Whats the point of having pistole if te cant aim
Whats the point of having bloods with no veins
Whats the point of having Amore with no pain"

Like... I just have to point out how thats really well written. The first two statements are pretty factually real and true. If te cant aim, no point in having guns. If te dont have veins, your blood is pretty pointless.

So its indirectly saying Amore is factually tied with pain. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Thats like... so nicely put through. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I mean I disagree. But.. XD più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Really though. NF has some really powerful and well written lyrics. postato più di un anno fa
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Riku114 detto …
Honestly, te are all too wonderful people.

For how horrible this week has been treating me, I have so many supportive, caring, concerned and wonderful Friends trying to help me in the way they can and Ive really do appreciate it.

Its a really nice change from what Im used to.

I Amore te all. <3 postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ The feeling's mutual. te can be sure of that !!!! più di un anno fa
Heartbeat- commentato…
link più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
link più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Since Ive literally had a mental breakdown every giorno of the week (well week thus far, the five days into it) thus far, I am saying "Fuck it" and even though I have a test tomorrow, Im just not going to school and going to give myself a "mental health break."

Ive never had one before, but I figure five mental breakdowns in five days qualifies me for a single giorno free (except for packing) postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
That sounds like a good idea. te certainly seem like te need a break. più than one really, in my opinion !!!! più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
How to defeat the Generation 1 Elite Four using only 1 Pokemon and zero items.

Step 1: Capture a Diglett o Dugtrio from Digletts Cave

Step 2: Put Earthquake on Dugtrio

Step 3: Go to Celadon City and purchase TM 15, Hyper Beam.

Step 4: Beat Elite Four. (Hyper Beam requires no recharge if te KO the opposing Pokemon. Earthquake handles Agatha.) postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
I have done the same. Only that I had a Charizard. I simply spammed my strongest attacks and got through !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Me: *is on my own profile* *wants to get to my club* *habitually clicks the first link* *gets Monika* ..... im hacked #JustMonika postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Past: ciao Riku! Lets go back to shit we tried to forget!

Me: ... uh... no

Present: ciao Riku! How about me? Lets look at how tired we are and our current and upcoming schedule this week and realize we are EXTREMELY overexerted!

Me: ... no thank... you

Future: ciao Riku! Lets think about coll-

Me: Fuck off. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Also Doki Doki Literature is probably not a good game for people like me as I discussed with Wanta

But at the same time, its people like me that probably like it the most postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Quick question. If in Pokemon Ultra Sun/Moon, Maxie and all have Groudon and Kyogre, why did they unisciti Team arcobaleno Rocket anyways...?

Like why didnt they just flood / drought the world right away like they planned to?

Thats the real domanda Im wondering from the game. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I demand life cut me some slack.

Like can I have one giorno without it trying to raise the torture level? postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Wall: Wow! Riku is so optimistic about her mental state and her breakdowns!

Me: :) Yep

Wanta / Others I ranted to: *shakes head slowly* te havent seen behind the scenes postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Also, apologies if during one of those breakdowns I write some reaaaaaallllyyyy crazy shit. I can really get bad in them più di un anno fa
Heartbeat- commentato…
No need to apologize. te can rant all te want as long as te get it off your chest. più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ THIS. It is only natural really so do not feel bad about it !!!! più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
Rant all te want Rku. It's fine. più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
OKAY SO HERES THE THING.

DISSOCIATVE BREAKDOWNS ARE PIECES OF CRAP. te get existential crisis like never before, te ruin relationships, te feel lonelier than shit, #ExtremeNihilism, te literally dont feel like te exist, life becomes super boring, te dont even know why te are living cos te feel nothing, and they can last anywhere from half an ora to two o so months from my experiences.

BREAKDOWNS INVOLVING TRAUMA ARE WAAAAAYY BETTER. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
They are VERY intense, horrible, te literally feel crazy, te loose control for a bit, te feel strangled, te have to leave, and its horrible and hits out of nowhere and its painful, however its much più manageable because they are usually no longer than an ora (given mental state was decent before) and te can return to being happy and feeling GREAT after più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Shitty culo Dissociative Breakdowns ruin the rest of the giorno even when te get out of it, make your paranoid for the successivo week o so, until te ultimately fall into another one again più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Lets see how bad this trauma related stuff can get though. Apparently it only gets worse from here until my mind has fully processed everything so *cracks knuckles* Lets do this bois più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
C’era una volta postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
In a medieval display in the center of the clothing section of a Walmart in San Francisco più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
And finally he met a lion named "HOLY FUCK A LION SOMEBODY HELP ME!" più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
and that was how Carl's story ended più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
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Riku114 detto …
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Riku114 detto …
ĻŤâůÝå¿ŕºÞ·íÐŏŪĜ¡¡¦ ÖŻģŮÄňķĪ£ÈĈč©È©ŻáóĒ Ċ¢®ĿŠŊěŤįïú¤ťË°ŇķĻ¬ postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
For Youtube to actually convince me Doki Doki Literature Club was worth going back for despite its slow pace, it REALLY had to spoil a good handful of things, but at the same time it did win me over so... XD postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
So I got spoiled on a lot of Sayori and Monika, Wanta got a lot of Yuri and Monika, and neither of us got much of anything if at all of rosa haired girl I forgot the name of XD Shes still a mystery più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Dammit Riku! Why the need for Spoilers??? Meh... Regardless, good to know that it won te over even if it was expected !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
XD I know I just forgot Natsuki's name. TBH I want più Natsuki in later parts o something. Cos like.... shes the only one I felt sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza around excluding Sayori XD più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
*sick* postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
te are sick? più di un anno fa
Heartbeat- commentato…
linkFeel better;3 più di un anno fa
GDragon612 commentato…
get well soon riku ೋღღೋ più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Mood: Better and noice postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Decision, since I probably can, Imma take today as a "day off" and just relax and not worry about college, packing, o mental health o anything. Just dedicate today to #FeelGood and #EnjoyLife to balance out the days più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Hopefully I can XD My parents could screw up my plans o me getting sick / più irritated in the throat due to dust might too. But #RP #Gaming #Music più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Best idea più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
This Mood is precious and needs to be treasured !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Mood: amaro and apathetic. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Mood: link più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Mood: Why cant I write my relatable RP character's story? Why am I too tired to write it properly? Boo. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Mood: Will probably be better tomorrow morning and is just amaro and apathetic because shes super drained and exhausted più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
TFW te are doing Pokemon Showdown and the opponent turns on the timer while te take a moment to get acclimated to the gen 7 Pokemon and te get so pissed, te promptly wipe the floor with them without mostrare any mercy.

Riku can attest, I embarrassed the kid. postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Relatable !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
To be honest, anyone who abuses their children in any form deserve hell.

Because honestly, the amount of life long crap te put them in, screw them over mentally, and make them have to deal with is horrible. Honestly, I almost say it might be better to give them mercy and kill them instead of cursing them with such a state of being for the rest of their life - o at least for the rest of their childhood they will never get back. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Plus people who kill children get much più severely punished than those that abuse them. For fucks sake, one of my friend's dad tried to rape her and hes still a roaming free man più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Like seriously why the fuck is he still roaming? I actually know a lot of people who have PTSD because of my old group therapy and I can say 90% of their abusers are running fucking free. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I mean trade my eternal soul and put it in eternal torture for all child abusers to be stuck in there for eternity? Im almost down. più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Im honestly not really sad o anything, just really stressed out, overworked, and exhausted managing college stuff, school, my family, my mental health, and moving at once.

I could use a lap to sleep on. postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
te need a good ol Siberian Husky to cuddle up to più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
o an Akita. più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
That is only natural, Riku. Lots of stuff pulling te from every direction. Organize your daily schedule well. Most of all, te could really use some sleep indeed !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
That wonderful light feeling your head goes after te intentionally null yourself out. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Yall ever get that feeling where te want time to go da faster so te just kinda want to go to sleep even though te arent tired? postato più di un anno fa
Heartbeat- commentato…
Yep And! I’m still awake 😐 più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Quite a few times !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I know its whining but ugh. Why do I have so many events booked this week AND still have school at the same time :v postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Can we trade? Can I have things to do all week while te get to rest? I'd Amore a week of nonstop job interviews più di un anno fa
Heartbeat- commentato…
Super Riku più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
@Wanta For this week sure. :v più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Fun fact, I dont post my banners o backgrounds that I have on my profilo on my club since Im protective of the things I made personally for my use only XD However if I do make a profilo banner o background for other people, I do like to share them XD postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
<3 !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I havent had nachos in a while... I should probably have some nachos. postato più di un anno fa