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JetBlack__ detto …
Psh.. riku is all high and mighty now xD postato ·12 mesi fa
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I AM BACK ·12 mesi fa
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I havent been able to touch the internet much for a few days and probably wont for the successivo two XD postato ·12 mesi fa
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So in Pre-Retreat we...

1) Dont know who owns a baggage cos no one claims it so we might have Lost some one

2) Played Spike the Section LEader with a Bag

3) Claimed a section dog

4) Claimed a section Ikea Shopping carrello found on the street

5) Tired XD postato ·12 mesi fa
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Gosh Im tired as heck XD Lots of fun. I Amore my new section to be honest and for the first time in years, I was the one adopted rather than the other way around. postato ·12 mesi fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Great you're having fun while at it. Keep it strong, Rikubun !!!! ·12 mesi fa
GDragon612 commentato…
try to sleep well Riku~bun<3 ·12 mesi fa
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:v tfw te have to wake up at 4 am, its 11 pm, te have a long long giorno tomorroq and youve been trying to sleep for the past ora and cant :v postato ·12 mesi fa
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I'm blank. postato più di un anno fa
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Literally just staring at the screen for minuti at end più di un anno fa
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Never consciously dissociated this hard without breaking into a different mode / persona of sorts più di un anno fa
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Me: I wonder what a random post from a anno fa says

Me, a anno ago: "anxiety"

Me: ...

Me, a anno ago: "anxiety anxiety anxiety"

Me: *gently pats my year-ago self's back* postato più di un anno fa
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Man Im pooped. Exhausted, tired, and pooped.

Not like actual poop but like...

Energy poop postato più di un anno fa
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Man I get overwhelmed when multiple people are talking to me and asking me for information I dont know on the spot and dont have time to look up cos they are rushing for an answer.

On the other side, Ramune is an okay substitute for Dr. Pepper when it comes to chilling down from that. postato più di un anno fa
cool
GDragon612 detto …
yooooo Riku and CO !!! Have an fantastic weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace and out kat meow xD postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
XD My weekend will be chaotic to be completely honest with you. Heading off to college this weekend più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ Hang in there, Rikubun. You'll pull through that Chaos just fine !!!! più di un anno fa
GDragon612 commentato…
welcome in the chaos hehe =D te are not alone riku =p ·12 mesi fa
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There are the times when te have to put energy to hold yourself up when your mental health is trying to make te curl up and shut down.

But just surviving isnt good enough. As difficult as it is, te have to push yourself a little extra. Do something to make sure te keep it up and remind yourself that te are better than the whispers in your head are trying to convince te that te are. postato più di un anno fa
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When an old nostalgic Green giorno song is one of your options for Audition Musica for your upcoming marching band

https://tinyurl.com/y9vjxx79 postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
The Nostalgia vibes are pretty strong indeed. Green giorno is always the way. Awesome !!!! più di un anno fa
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I will Amore anyone who will massage my thighs rn XD

Jkjk that job and prize is already taken

But geesh my thighs are sore XD più so closer to my knees but specifics dont matter postato più di un anno fa
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Ughh... Finding the perfect finger collare for your significant other to claim them as your partner is hard. postato più di un anno fa
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Huh... I might have to figure out how to be emotionally vulnerable... o just normal but like... emotionally vulnerable for my standards again.

Since I wont have my boyfriend around for three months and hes been the only place I can be entirely genuine with my emotions. Cause if I dont I think Ill kinda go back a good few steps and snap again and thats not good. postato più di un anno fa
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When things get down to it, theres usually something to tend to neglect that can easily disrupt and cause problems both in your personal and interpersonal life. If te can figure out what te lack a balance of, te can likely make più harmony in your life da balancing it out. postato più di un anno fa
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Happy 9/11 da-

Oh shit no. Thats not what te say postato più di un anno fa
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Also I stopped playing Dragon Age. Something abotu it just cant keep me drawn in. postato più di un anno fa
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I should watch some Anime again... o read Medaka Box again... choices... choices... postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
I have been considering of rereading Medaka Box as well. It would be nice to have someone on the same pace to discuss while doing so !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
That sounds cool honestly. As the last two breathing fans, I like the idea più di un anno fa
SilentForce commentato…
I've actually been planning to read the "Medaka Box" manga for quite a while now più di un anno fa
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"You took most of what I introduced to te and showed te and took it to the extreme Riku. My Friends that saw te grow up say te are like me, but level two - o più meanly put - Scar 2.0" ~ My Oldest Sister 'ScarlettGriffin'

Im not going to say shes wrong, at least during my childhood XD Most of the notable things (good and bad) I had from her was cause I took her consigli o introductions to things to an extreme postato più di un anno fa
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Like... anime, Guardians of Gahoole, some più immoral tendencies I had, Trichotillomania, etc più di un anno fa
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Its mainly since even as a kid I was kind of an all o nothing kind of person. I either have little interest and dont involve myself with it much at all, o I get strongly invested into it. One o the other più di un anno fa
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And back when I was younger, my oldest sister was the closest thing I had to a parent figure so she kinda introduced me to a lot of things and a lot of concepts / visualizzazioni to take a look at più di un anno fa
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*deep breath* As much as I Amore change and Amore growth and am excited for college, the massive change just gives me that natural halt and paralyze-anxiety moments in my head.

I have everything pretty planned out and back up plans to follow with it and everything. I set everything up so that transition should be both pretty good and considerably easy, but honestly, no matter how much I prepare and plan, I cant stay that the base fact that MAJOR things of my life are changing postato più di un anno fa
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ISNT at all a bit anxiety causing. I know itll be fine and I know Ill flourish, but honestly going from my rather regular life style Ive had for... at least six o seven years and abruptly change both the environment, the frequency of which I am able to be around my boyfriend, and simple school is a tad bit intimidating più di un anno fa
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Im really driven and confident, but I still am a normal 17 (almost 18) anno old with severe anxiety XD So as much as my drive and confidence lately has done GREAT to balance the scales, I'm still quite human in the way that such a strong shift with a distance long enough that I cant reliably say I have my family and boyfriend covering my back like they usually do (at least my family with driving and making sure I eat and get basic needs done) più di un anno fa
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A anno o two fa Id be having a major panic attack o anxiety attack over this to be honest. Now I just have a few secondi of paralysis when I think about it too much and maybe a bit of avoidance in actually thinking about it too much. più di un anno fa
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Had a great first party of three (possibly four since it sounds like people want to celebrate a little on my actual birthday in Davis) XD Went swimming, spent an ora playing Rocket League and Fortnite while just being goofs, then just like... two o three hours watching memes and other hilarious Youtube.

Pretty awesome tbh. Plus it was enough of a success they want me to organize a get together in the winter when everyone is back together. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Honestly, all my non-trumpets canceled / didnt get back to me after saying they wanted to go, but I really dont mind. The trumpet section had this great bond and all with one another. It was amazing to spend the giorno with them più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Great to know that te had an awesome time !!!! più di un anno fa
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So lets run a progress check on how much Ive improved over the past three years with my ability to think of myself as worthy and comfortable with being slightly vulnerable da asking for people to hang out with me for my birthday... postato più di un anno fa
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2016: Literally took three therapy sessions over three weeks of my therapist telling me how I NEED to have a birthday party and hwo he wants me to have one and my mom and sister bugging me to do it. I reluctantly invite THREE people to cena for my birthday. Spend the week before it very uncomfortable and lowkey panicking and begrudingly checking up on who can make it. più di un anno fa
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2017: Willingly, on my own accord, set up a birthday party. Very uncomfortable still. Not really wanting to do it, but knowing its good. Freaked out internally for like half a week. Enjoyed it, invited like ten people, about five appeared. più di un anno fa
JetBlack__ commentato…
An inspiration. più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Once I got through the Arguement Armament that was bugged on Hard, I got the full ending of V3 and it sucks less with the last bit but still annoyed me and pissed me off for the most of it. But thats just my opinion.

Im not on the side of "I hated the ending" but I più so on the "I disliked the ending". postato più di un anno fa
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Actually it continued past what I thought and I like it better. Im neutral on the ending. Really executed poorly through most of the Chapter, but I suppose they ended it good enough più di un anno fa
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I will not say that none of my gripes I was going on before dont exist though. Its not a great ending o a good one, but its not THAT horrible since it cleared up one of my larger gripes più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
It is only fair. I am glad that te went back at it and finished the whole thing yourself, having a somewhat better reception of it nonetheless. That is what the DR Experience is all about !!!! più di un anno fa
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I might sleep early cos my headache is making me tired postato più di un anno fa
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Yeah V3s Ending is an Ending I will pretend NEVER happened postato più di un anno fa
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I closed out of the final Armament arguement cos I didnt feel like doing it and if I have to redo the ending, Ill research the characters and watch other people talk to them and whatever. If I have to do più than the armament, Im honestly not thinking its worth it più di un anno fa
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Its a sad giorno when I dont put a positive review for a Danganronpa game. As much as the first five chapters were pretty good (save how annoying Atua got), when combining the ending, the sheer lack of connection to the past story, the sheer lack of a conclusion to the precedente stuff, and how buggy it was as a PC port, I just couldnt say Id recommend it unless it goes on a major sale più di un anno fa
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^Nah, as I detto in PM, I still Amore the game. Its just the ending is baaad più di un anno fa
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Ugh. V3's ending so far is so predictable, underwhelming, and kinda annoying that I actually stopped mid-climax cause I was getting bored and tired of them jammering on about the thing I predicted from like the prologue. postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Always finish what te start. Things aren't always exactly what they seem, Rikubun !!!! più di un anno fa
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Danganronpa Chapter 5 Ending

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma
Gonta Gokuhara / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Keebo
Korekiyo Shinguji / Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
There honestly isnt a ranking.
I just know that I dont
Care much for Tsumugi
o Angie much currently
This weird spacing for this
Is for the aesthetic of a ranking postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I also realized while thinking about it to myself that the reason Im più ENTJ than ENTP is the line "Honestly, my plans and shit arent that limiting. I Amore the ability to adapt and branch out into different options so I always ADD IT INTO MY PLANS"

I had to pause there and kinda realize I plan to not plan and thats probably why Im più of a J than P XD postato più di un anno fa
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If I was in Danganronpa Universe:

"I am The Ultimate High School Level Bird"

"Dont te mean Bird Owner o Bird Expert"

"No Bird" postato più di un anno fa
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Personally, as dumb as it sounds, the way te walk, stand, and sit can really affect your confidence I believe. postato più di un anno fa
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Definately add dress into there too più di un anno fa
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TFW te are listening to one of your preferito Project Diva Future Tone songs and te feel te fingers not tapping to the beat but rather to the rhythm it memorized to clear the game XD postato più di un anno fa
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I honestly dont know why I like "This is the Happiness and Peace of Mind Commitee" so much più di un anno fa
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Im SO fucking blind and dumb XD Im not kidding te XD How did I jsut realize this postato più di un anno fa
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Four fucking years guys. più di un anno fa
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Possibly even più più di un anno fa
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STILL didnt realize it più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Oh my fucking god I feel so fucking dumb XD XD

Im so retarded and blind XD XD

For all of te that think I understand myself really well and my mental health, te just hear me out right here XD

Ill change that for you. postato più di un anno fa
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Cause I just realized that back when I used to have VERY aggressive responses to people mostrare me affection to the point of going to mental, emotional, and psychological torture and probably the most blood thirsty language and manipulation te can think of and in two cases actually getting violent. For the ones that happened the worst, it was cause my boyfriend was being too affectionate to me and I kinda liked him back and it terrified the SHIT out of me più di un anno fa
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te literally dont get much più textbook PTSD and flashbacks there più di un anno fa
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Gesù Fucking Christ how did I JUST realize this più di un anno fa
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>Makes a Cute Playlist for Part of Boyfriend's Gift

>Sneaks in a Happy Feet 2 Song

>Boyfriend gets the playlist on 4th week

>Boyfriend doesnt commento / call me out

>:successkid:

....

I like Happy Feet (especially the secondo movie) Musica too much. postato più di un anno fa
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That feeling when your boyfriend realizes te are getting #LiterallyTriggered before te even realize it and hugs te tightly causing te to snap out of it relatively quickly and very well calming te and your body down with detto hug postato più di un anno fa
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This is why I Amore him tbh. How the fuck does he notice before I do when Im the one getting mentally tormented and completely blanking out from my surroundings. più di un anno fa
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Do te ever get like that rhythm game depression?

Where te like.... practice one hard part over and over again for like ten minuti straight... think te got it.... choke the first full run through, decide to give it a secondo time, and just find absolutely none of the skill there so like... te jsut shut down the game, turn off the console, turn off the TV and sit there wondering what the hell te did with your life to get no where postato più di un anno fa
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random Fact: I have a secret lowkey Amore for playing cards. I can never reject a pack of them and while the Amore isnt pushing me to actively collect them, I do collect ones that are free o easy to get postato più di un anno fa
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I personally believe dystopia and utopia are one in the same. o rather, for one to exist, the other almost always exists for another.

The two go hand in hand. For every light, there is a shadow, for every shadow, there is a light. postato più di un anno fa
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.... god why do I Amore the people who fuck with the trials the most? XD

Nagito? Kokichi? Togami? postato più di un anno fa
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TFW when your preferito of two icone has a colorscheme that when reduced to a small icona looks like shit so te gotta work with your secondo preferito postato più di un anno fa
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Well my boyfriend admitted to bragging about how smart I am whenever prompted to people XD postato più di un anno fa
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TFW te HAVE TWO immagini THAT COULD MAKE WONDERFUL icone BUT PIXLR IS DOWN postato più di un anno fa
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ALL HAIL KOKOCHI OUMA! postato più di un anno fa
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Really I cant imagine how some people do that whole "30 years old, neck beard, in parents basement, jobless"

I have had a longer summer than the majority of people and everyone going off to college and work just gets me feeling like a lazy worthless piece of shit XD

I mean I dont take it seriously cos I know Im only on a longer break than everyone else, but man do I feel like a deadbeat lazy piece of crap XD postato più di un anno fa
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And I dont feel like that for più than like three secondi in the morning XD Cos I was like "Wheres my mom - oh yeah she has work now too. ... hmm... i guess ill play some video games" più di un anno fa
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If te ever get close enough to me to the point I ask te directly for affection o comfort rather than just ranting to te o having a breakdown in front of you, te know te really are someone I trust.

Cause ranting o breaking down is often a sign I kept things to myself too much like I do 95% of the time. If I go and just say "I need a hug, can te hug me" o "Im feeling bad and could really use someone to be around" o basically anything along the lines of postato più di un anno fa
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"Im [insert negative emotion] and vulnerable, but could te please [insert help]" cause I rarely let people I dont trust around me when I feel I might be in a vulnerable state and even when I do trust someone, its unlikely I would both tell them Im vulnerable and feeling bad AND ask them to help. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Its something I SHOULD do più often, but it goes against every instinct and habit I am used to. Its like asking a lupo to eat tofu. I mean Im sure they probably can to some degree, but its just so unnatural più di un anno fa
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Its kind of sad that I still have to be in very specific conditions and situations to be remotely comfortable with actually thinking about any stressors that arent necessarily easily fixable let alone talk about it o express it o anything.

I didn't really think about it much, but other people cant control it and/or are free and sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza enough feeling that they are able to let themselves feel and express their feelings and emotions even in inconvenient times postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
As much as I have worked on it, I still am not really near the emotional availability and transparency level of a normal person. più di un anno fa
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Unless I am outside of my house, around someone Im comfortable with, having a therapy session within a week o two, and am not under time pressure o a critical period of time, can I genuinely feel comfortable touching upon all that stuff più di un anno fa
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ENTJS ARENT AUTOMATICALLY THE MAIN VILLAIN IN EVERY SERIES XD

Me and Zeppie are memeing about how in like 80% of the charts, ENTJs are the main villain of any series XD Like cut us some slack postato più di un anno fa
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Sometimes its really interesting to see how differently two people could see and view the world. Depressed VS not depressed. Creative and in Amore with imagination / fantasy and someone whos been più interested in real and worldly activities.

Even taking away psychosis and colorblindness and all that, the sheer difference in the ways we interpret the world just based on our upbringing is just honestly fascinating. Even mental health and all aside, the possibilities are astounding postato più di un anno fa
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Like as someone whose dissociated a lot since as far as I remember and probably my entire life from reports from my oldest sisters, I dont think Ill ever FULLY interpret the world and take it as seriously o feel as connected to it as people who have never dissociated before. I can recover all I want, but hte predisposition will always be there. più di un anno fa
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o the contrast between me and my boyfriend. As te all know, Im VERY into stories, and characters, and fantasy, and all that creative stuff that go far beyond anything realistic. On the other hand, a lot of his interests are più grounded in worldly things. History, space, documentaries, racing, sports, camping, things that are physically around and that te can see for yourself and what not. Its not to say he doesnt have an imagination, but he finds such interest in things I would otherwise call rather boring. It honestly fascinates me and while it sounds like an issue that would cause problems, its honestly part of something that intrigues me the most about the relationship. Just trying to see the world that he sees it and understand it in the way he does. Its just quite baffling più di un anno fa
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Then just speaking in the spectrum of my own life. The sheer difference between the world when I was extremely depressed and suicidal versus now where I dont really suffer from depression outside of maybe rare bursts that can last from an ora to a week, but even then its rare. But tangents aside, the sheer difference between now and then on how the world looks and feels and all is baffling. Take that one major thing away and it literally seems like the world is brighter and più enjoyable and free where as it appeared dark, empty, and threatening before. più di un anno fa
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Perception, interpretation, and understanding are just such interesting topics when te see how differently one person could experience the EXACT same situation differently, and even how one person can experience the same event at different poitns in their life and perceive, interpret, and understand it differently. This is just one of those things I like to contemplate on and find just simply amazing più di un anno fa
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Really, one of the best things I can get when Im having an anxiety / panic / traumatic breakdown is for someone to get me to look at them and remind me that Im safe.

Cos most of the time I get that thousand yard stare cos Im pretty much stuck in my head and usually getting me to focus on something around me that I am comfortable around is a bit of a nice way to slow down my brain and kind of snap me out of it.

A lot of the time I dont realize it too which is kinda funny postato più di un anno fa
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Pretty much if I sound distraught and Im staring off at nothing in particular and all, I sometimes just need someone to refocus me and ground me and that can help a lot più di un anno fa
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Usually my boyfriend is really good at noticing my 'negative' spazio outs where Im silently panicking o stressing out in my head cos I apparently have a specific look with my usual "staring off at nothing" and hes pretty good at snapping me out of it there before it becomes a problem and tends to be a lot better at it than one would expect when he somehow gets me to vocalize it, usually when its gotten pretty bad più di un anno fa
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I... I dont relate with much of the Libra sign much anymore.

I used to relate to a decent amount of it but not so much lately. postato più di un anno fa
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I should make a new icona at some point. postato più di un anno fa
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Fuck Atua XD postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Shhhh.... He is watching over us !!!! più di un anno fa
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I think I might be getting a cold postato più di un anno fa
BlindBandit92 commentato…
Rip. I hope te feel better. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I think it wasnt anything serious. I mostly seem better now più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Tht's certainly good to know. Stll, take care of yourself as much as te can !!!! più di un anno fa
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Techno Musica makes great exercise music. Just sayin' postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ !!!! più di un anno fa
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So I was looking più into MBTI and all (actually was awhile fa but I was specifically looking into mine today) and letters alone and descriptions alone, I am a pretty solid ENTX

The interesting thing is the two I feel are closest to me are ENTJ and ENTP which have NO shared cognitive functions.

I will say I am sure that ENTJ is my main "default" mode, but I do feel in certain situations and cases I can very much be an ENTP. postato più di un anno fa
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I personally like Danganronpa cos I like mysteries and debating and arguing and high stakes and death and tragedy and all my preferiti dying

Its the Danganronpa experience, killing all your preferiti off to make te feel true despair. postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Same goes for me. Plus, the determination that is required to go through true Despair. A world filled with it as well as Hope, both countering one another. Havng the courage to still look at the Future despite the circumstances. It always felt like a pretty unique message to me. Fictional o not, I keep being inspired regardless !!!! più di un anno fa
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I am honestly quite tired XD postato più di un anno fa
GDragon612 commentato…
welcome Riku~hun XD più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Relatable as always XD !!!! più di un anno fa
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It does still baffle me a bit how people can not so simply step back from their own issues and disconnect their emotions from it to get a good Leggere on what kind of action should be done.

On the other hand, I must say I do creep myself a bit on how I can do it. postato più di un anno fa
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Ah man I was just hit with a wave of something and my balance was knocked off. Like if yesterday I was standing in the optimal "goldilocks" zone where I had the energy and drive and optimism to go forth at things

Its like today I've been teetering and going back to sliding and running back and forth to keep myself balanced. postato più di un anno fa
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Im honestly fine Im sure. If I sleep and wake up theres a good chance Ill probably be reset and all. Hopefully at least XD Otherwise Id have to figure this manually myself. più di un anno fa
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Maybe a giorno of not playing games 70-80% of the time Im awake will do me some good. I suppose it might be causing my escapist tendencies / accusations to come back XD più di un anno fa
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But nah Im all good, its just that its uncomfortable più di un anno fa
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Chapter 2

preferito Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara
Gonta Gokuhara
Ryoma Hoshi
Korekiyo Shinguji / Keebo

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

preferito Female Ranking:
Kirumi Tojo
Maki Haruwaka
Kaede Akamatsu
Miu Iruma
Angie Yonaga / Himiko Yumeno / Tenko Chabashira
Tsumugi Shirogane postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Also Ouma's voice actor is absolutely great più di un anno fa
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Personally I wanna get back to working on my mental health rather than kind of putting it in a backseat, but I think its kinda easier to not wake the dragon when I have so much other things going on and cos its not really a good idea to wake the 'Mental Health Dragon' when te cant see a therapist for a while XD postato più di un anno fa
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So lets see. Chapter 1 of Danganronpa V3 complete

Favorite Male Ranking:
Kokichi Ouma / Kaito Momota
Shuichi Saihara / Gonta Gokuhara
Korekiyo Shinguji
Keebo
Ryoma Hoshi

(Rantarou Amami is unsorted)

Favorite Female Ranking:
Kaede Akamatsu
Kirumi Tojo
Miu Iruma / Maki Haruwaka
Tenko Chabashira
Angie Yonaga
Himiko Yumeno / Tsumugi Shirogane postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I will do these each chapter to mark my changes in preferiti XD più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
preferito complessivamente, generale would probably be either Ouma o Kaito. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Very good game so far più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I Amore GONTA HES SO ADORABLE. I doubt he will be my preferito but I Amore him XD Imma probably make him my child and I barely started Chapter 1 postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
The Purity is strong. TOO strong !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Having a good "why" to what te are doing helps a lot with getting yourself going and sticking to what te plan to do. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Yeah I dont have the right to call myself an introvert at all anymore XD Im like a straight extrovert. Still selective but straight full on extrovert.

I get offered a giorno to have to myself and play the three video games Im playing all giorno and watching Youtube and all after having active days, and it annoys me

So Im like "I guess Ill go out to exercise later" and then am like "I wonder if I could get in touch with any Friends today. ... nah most are already off..." postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I get bored in an ENTIRE giorno to myself XD più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Pretty relatable !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I am so not used to how HD this new laptop is postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Wow Danganronpa in just the opening screen runs SO much better on this più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I still feel really bad about upgrading cos my old one still works well... I feel like itll be lonely and its a lot of wasted potential to not be used più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I wonder what Fortnite will look like più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Honestly, maybe Im the odd card out cos my middle sister didnt care, but like... all the money going out into getting me stuff for college... like yikes.

Its a lot and I dont like spending - even money that isnt mine - so it kinda hurts to see bills of at least $100 a giorno coming up. Well not EVERY giorno but like almost cos we are doing small shopping trips daily. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I dont get how people can spend their money so freely. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Im spending it on things college and my parents say are necessities and just... wow. Its not even my money and I dislike it più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Imma get carpal tunnel o some shit playing Project Diva: Future Tone. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I wish Luvoratory was on it XD più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Shit Riku Says: "Imma groom them to like the imbracatura just like a pedophile grooms a young child to have sex with them. .... It actually a very very similar process if te just change a few details." postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I'm honestly really sensitive to the thought, sight, and all of child abuse o anything like it such as tough Amore o whatever. I was watching a "What would te do" haivng something similar to it and my whole body just flares up and I start to get that narrow vision shit.

And I know its actors. And I know its on TV, but part of me gets really flared up seeing it. Its the only thing that gets me so drastically and emotionally responsive other than maybe animal abuse postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
And that narrow vision usually isnt too good. My therpist says its something to do with panic attacks o whatever but it usually follows with some form of a 'fight' instinct. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I would like to say I simply hate it and cant stand for it, but if there is roughness and anger towards a child it just shakes me più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Relatable. I understand that feeling very well, dudette !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
So my bird imbracatura came in today and Ill likely begin testing it out and working with it later today

Rather than starting with agoraphobic Lucy tho Imma adjust "Accepts anything Riku does" Smokey postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Captain might be pretty badly injured cos he hit a bacheca really roughly. His head feathers got torn out and I think thats whats causing the minor specks of blood on his head, but theres reason to suspect he MIGHT be blind o have poor vision right now. Ill check him out to see if he really is when hes calmed down in his cage a bit. postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Hope everythings works out !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
So it came up in conversation so I took the Mensa Online Pretest and apparently "have an excellent chance of passing the real exam"

And, for those that dont know, Mensa is a group for 'geniuses' with an IQ higher than 132 that my therapist bugged me about.

I think Im somewhere around the 140s o something like that if te convert my Pretest score?? Im like scrub tier 'genius' o high tier 'above average' postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I also finished 8 minuti early XD più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
When my mom had her IQ tested yeaaars ago, she was like around 165. più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
OH GREAT. I got the Chem teacher so notoriously hard he is a well known meme for crushing people's souls in the school XD

Sounds like a fun challenge I suppose postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Those Teachers are the kind of people that value hard work above all, most of the time. As I detto to te before, I doubt te could leave a bad impression on him !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Me: Great Im busy all giorno on my actual birthday. I guess we could find some time either around cena o on Saturday to celebrate it?

Roommate: That sounds good but we probably have a football game to go to

Me: Ah yes. "Cant make it, got band." I should feel stressed o disappointed o annoyed, but its honestly kinda nostalgic and peaceful. I'm kind of glad that line still exists. Makes me feel at home.

Roommate: Same postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I HAVE SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO BUT NONE OF THEM OCCUR FOR LIKE THE successivo WEEK DAMN IT postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Anxiety and excitement are pretty much identical brain processes and chemicals and activity in the brain and the only thing that differentiates the two is the narrative te have around it.

Yeah thats probably explain why the level of excitement I have for college is getting to the place where my chest is crushing like anxiety and shit XD postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
1 TB is so much più than I, even as a digital hoarder, need postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I'm sad now...

I'm going to be leaving behind my Lenovo Thinkpad before its had a chance to do anything wrong for me... Im sorry baby. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Having someone who has faith in te no matter how much te dont have faith in yourself is honestly something that can do te wonders.

Its hard to find people willing to invest that much into someone and finding someone like that might honestly be crazy since its unnatural, but it does wonders for the recovery process. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Cause when te start to have inevitable relapses o fall backs on your recovery process, its easy to loose faith in yourself and give up for fall into despair. But for someoen to always be rooting there from the side lines doing whatever they can to help, it can really help più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
♫ God bless the giorno I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you
Let it be me

[..]

Each time we meet love
I find complete love
Without your sweet love
What would life be?

So never leave me lonely
Just tell me te Amore me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me

And that you'll always
Let it be me

So never leave me lonely
Tell me te Amore me only
And that you'll always
Let it be me ♫ postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Honestly, I sound like Im making a big deal out of it, but going to Davis with a fresh start and making new Friends and rebuilding my reputation away from my old angsty image others had set from my precedente years and away from my toxic family, it honestly feels like Im being dato the chance to be alive and live like a normal person away from my mental health o hand I was dealt. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Like this post was originally come out as "I can't wait to live!" but that didnt make sense without context / explanation più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Cause I've already been invited to a party over there and while I dont usually like parties, someone actually bothered to invite me to one, so I might as well check it out and give it a shot? Its a going away party for my roommates friend and will be the giorno I arrive and apparently shes really wanted to meet me as well più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
That is simply wonderful to know and completely natural. Just as it should be. Make the most out of it !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I still remember that one time I had a really bad sleep paralysis experience and I felt like I was literally dying while napping to Amazing Grace done da Phantom Regiment on repeat

Afterwards, all I could think of was how ironic is was and how, for the rest of that giorno despite being kinda pretty suicidal most of the time, I didnt want to die XD

Just for that giorno o two tho. Cos I was really bad then postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Yikes. Tomorrow I have the massive task that is transfering my digital hoard off my computer postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Its really interesting. Ive been playign the demo of Future Tone a good bit and theres an interesting mental skip I have when processing what to click and when where my brain never (or registers for such a short period of time I dont notice it) registers the actual button Im supposed to click.

Its like I see something on the screen and my fingers interpret it postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Im not saying Im fluent cos my muscle memory isnt perfect nor does it sync perfectly with my ears and eyes to get a perfect "COOL" all the time o anything. But I find it interesting since it has that SAME exact feeling of a skip of translation I get when I play my trumpet più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
I see a note and make the fingering, usually not actually thinking of what the letter note it is before playing it unless I check back and think it sounds wrong o something più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I'm SO gay for Megurine Luka. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Today was a long giorno that was 70% spent in the DMV postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
te know Im no where even near the age o contemplation point for me to even be thinking about it since I definately do not want kids until I am rather well stable financially and extremely extremely stable within my relationship and have had time to enjoy my marriage when I get around there

Then even then Im not sure if I really want kids even then. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
WITH THAT BEING SAID, I do have a voice in my head thats like "If I were to have kids, that would be a good thing to raise them with" più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
It would be a TOTAL invasion of human rights and privacy so Im not ACTUALLY for it, but its really something when te have to get a license to drive a car but literally anyone can have a child più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Putting the adoption thing aside, I share the same beliefs on that matter !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Okay after researching Impulsivity VS Compulsivity I can say I dont have less Impulse Control issues and più Compulsive Issues XD

Which makes sense because no matter how much I like to put the word "minor" in front of the diagnosis without them saying its minor, I do have OCD. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
Honestly though. I have to focus really hard for like five to twenty secondi to make sure my hand DOESNT do something. più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
It sounds silly but with how used to it I've gotten, its almost reflex that when I get that overwhelming body tension that within secondi I just do whatever its telling me to do più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
So better to nip it at the bud più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
WHAT THE FUCK WAS THE LAST LIKE THREE minuti OF DANGANRONPA 3 XD

WHERE THE FUCK DID MUNAKATA WALK OFF TO - BETTER YET HOWD HE WALK ANYWHERE WHEN THEY ARE ON AN ISLAND. HE MIGHT HAVE WALKED TO A barca BUT WHY AND WHAT

AND THE ENDING MADE SENSE WITH HOPES PEAK BUT WAS KINDA ODD AND ABRUPT WUT postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
ITS SUCH A SMALL THING più di un anno fa
Riku114 commentato…
"YOU ARE A VALUABLE ASSET. CANT te AT LEAST TELL US WHERE SO WE CAN KEEP te IN CONTACT: più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
Dudette, te can exclude Kyoko, Nagito and most of the DR2 Cast from the Dead List, Seiko's wish in a way didn't go to waste, so many Children appeared, were sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza and ended up happy, Hope's Peak Academy was rebuilt and you'll probably have a lot of material for Fanfics and various hypotheses concerning Munakata. The Future Foundation Member is still alive as well and kicking. DR3 is over. Let THAT sink in XD !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Oooooh roommates are nice XD I really cant wait to go to Davis. Plus the section leaders of the trumpet section contacted me and they seem sweet and kind. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Me: *visiting band Friends and their band camp*

One of my Children: STOP. PLAYING. DANGANRONPA.

Me: Imma do what I damn well want to :v :v

XD I havent even been playing Danganronpa. I opened it twice to see if it was a one time thing that it wasnt running hte best on my current laptop. XD It seems to run okay on my current one but I wont play it until I get my new one. postato più di un anno fa
Mauserfan1910 commentato…
Fucking weebs playing Anime games più di un anno fa
Mauserfan1910 commentato…
Why don't te weeks play quality games like Amore nikki più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
I suppose your fondness for it has been made quite apparent to them XD !!!! più di un anno fa
wantadog detto …
Ya it's a real break. Hoped for it to be a simple sprain but my arm droops 45 degrees without the brace. postato più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Meant to post this on Random. più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
@Riku deleting rude commenti doesn't work on me. If you're that particular about it then fine, I'll leave this up for awhile "then cancella it" if it means that much to te più di un anno fa
wantadog commentato…
Ah nevermind. Can't be bothered più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
*plans a pool party*

*forgets the reason she hasnt gone to the spiaggia o swimming pool for più than like 20 minuti is cause she doesnt have a fitting costume da bagno cos her bust is too big and shopping for one is hard cos its almost non-existent* postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I GOT MY ROOMMATE OFFICIALLY AS A ROOMMATE

YAY postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Me: *walks into the band room to visit old children*

Half the Band: SATANS BACK!!! SATANS BACK!!!

I wonder how confused the new members were. postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
I think I have a huge bias on animated Film cos some of my preferiti and most memorable ones are all bird related XD XD postato più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
"Im not good at ____" "I suck at ____" are not good excuses for not doing something te really Amore to / like to do. Skill is something that can easily be changed with a work, perseverance, and effort.

Its not like Im saying people who dont push da those are bad o just making excuses, but I hear it a lot and its kinda sad how easily those can kill people's dreams and all. postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
^ Amen to that !!!! più di un anno fa
Riku114 detto …
Im thinking of adding Jewel to Relatable Characters lista cos from a few scenes I rewatched from Rio, I think she has a relatively similar personality to me XD

But Id have to rewatch the movie again. Maybe the secondo but I think I only own the first rn postato più di un anno fa
TheLefteris24 commentato…
From what I have seen from the first Movie only, I guess she KINDA reminds me of te !!!! più di un anno fa