posted by Sacred_Love1550
Okay, so I know it's been awhile so how about an extra long one? Enjoy! ^_^
I slowly opened the door and my gaze ultimately found her.
Even though months have passed since I last saw her, she was still the most beautiful, angelic creature to have ever existed. But it seems as though she hasn't been eating very much because she was definitely thinner. And her once transculent-like skin was significantly paler, her castagna, castagno brown hair was still the same, thankfully. But her eyes . . . her once beautifully warm, and full of so many emotions brown eyes seemed as if they were clouded over. Clouded over with depression - something that I had caused.
She was gazing into my eyes and I remembered that I haven't hunted in weeks so that means my eyes were a deadly and bleak black. But my . . . thirst for her blood - that once unnerving, monstrous urge to take her life - was now gone. Had time somehow been the death blow to the monster inside me? I fervently hope so, perhaps the thirst for her blood was gone forever.
"Edward?" Her beautiful voice gasped in surprise.
"Bella?" I gasped pleasantly back, moments away from giving in to the desire to hold her in my arms.
She smiled with pure joy, and it made my lifeless cuore beat, if only it could, it would be beating for her.
I couldn't help but smile back at my angel, feeling alive for the first time in months.
But then that happiness was short-lived because her beautiful smile faded and she seemed to want to cry because she broke her gaze and gazed down at the tiny baby in her arms. Alana.
I was both surprised at how perfect the baby fit in her arms and overcome with grief and regret. I was the reason for her tears, I had caused her pain.
I think I'll just leave and give te two some privacy . . . Alice thought, and I had completely forgotten that she was in the room too, when it's just me and Bella, that's the only person I can focus on, Bella.
"Well, I think I'll go see what Jazz is up to. Do te want me to take Alana in the living room with Esme?" Alice asked, getting up.
"Yeah," Bella said, baciare the little girl's forehead and I felt a pang of jealousy but I quickly fought it down.
Bella handed Alana - who we all found out is Bella's cousin - to Alice and she walked out. Leaving Bella and I alone.
All she did was look down at her hands on her lap. What was she thinking? I had to know, so I went and sat in Alice's spot, moving hesitantly though, wondering if this was too soon.
"Why?" she interrupted, "I just don't understand . . . why are te here? You don't Amore me, and yet you're here!" She threw her arms up, expressing her anger, but what got me was the fact that she thought I didn't Amore her anymore. Of all the ridiculous, absurd things.
I gazed into her eyes, trying desperately to make her see that I do Amore her . . .
"I do Amore te Bella! How could I not? I'm here because Alice had a vision of te and I was concerned, so I raced here," I explained, thankful that she wasn't . . .
"But I still don't get it . . . why do te care what happens to me here? te left me!" she threw at me and I flinched at her accusation.
"I told te before Bella. I Amore you."
Her cuore beat unevenly, and she began shaking her beautiful head. "No, no, this is just a dream . . ."
How could she think that? "It's not a dream, love, I am truly here, we're truly here. I only left because I wanted te to have a happy, normal human life as te should. But my world kept interfering into that, dangering your life constantly, and so I only saw one way . . ." Leaving her. Pain shot through me as I remembered one of the worst days of my existence . . .
She looked away from me, and I started wondering . . .
"Bella are te happy?" I asked, and she looked up at me.
"Happy? How could I be happy without the reason for my existence? How could I ever be happy without you?"
Did she really mean that? I studied her eyes to see if she really did mean it, but her eyes were too clouded over to see through.
"Please just answer yes o no Bella," I asked.
"No, Edward, I am not happy. I can only be happy with you," she answered truthfully, and the greatest hope swelled inside me.
Because if she wasn't happy, then that means I would stay to make her happy. With that thought in mind, I wanted to share my happiness with her, to prove to her she was awake, to start on the path to her happiness.
Before she could comprehend what was going on, I was already lying on superiore, in alto of her with her pressed into the pillows. Her warmth radiated around me and I was very careful not to let her feel any of my weight.
Then I kissed her, letting some of my self-control slip. We moaned together at the amazing feeling, and our hands went everywhere. The sensation making me whisper her name whenever I could.
When we broke apart, we gazed into each other's eyes.
"I'm not leaving you." Not now, not ever would I do that, I loved her far too much to be away from her.
She looked away. "Sure, sure," she said, unbelieving.
I tilted her chin so she would face me.
"I will never leave te again," I vowed, meaning each and every word.
But she still didn't seem to believe me.
"Why can't te believe me Bella?" I asked softly.
"Because . . . Because what te told me in the forest that giorno Edward . . . Was all true about us. I'm not good for you, I'm not enough for you."
"Yes. You. Are." I was determined to make her see just how truly pure, amazing she was.
She looked away, again.
"Please Bella, how can I make te see? Will te let me attempt to explain what te mean to me?" I pleaded, and she met my gaze.
I had to make sure she was listening before I continued.
"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason . . . And then te shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When te were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded da the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no più reason for anything."
And that was truly how I viewed it, how we met, how our relationship grew like a cosmic flame, and then when I left her. How there was nothing for me, how nothing else mattered; it was all meaningless.
"Your eyes will adjust," she mumbled.
"That's just the problem - they can't." And before she could say anything against it, I continued. "Bella, I Amore you. I have always loved you, and I will always Amore you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every secondo I was away. When I told te that I didn't want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy."
She gazed into my eyes for an immeasurable amount of time.
"I believe you."
Hope flared up inside me again, and I couldn't help myself but baciare her, she was just too tempting.
"Thank te Bella, I Amore you." I spoke in total bliss, leaning my forehead against her tender one.
"I Amore te too," she spoke, and her words burned into my heart, I would never tire of them.
And we sat there, in a comforting silence until a loud cry pierced through the air. And as I gazed into her eyes, we both knew who the cry belonged to. Alana.
Bella jumped out of the letto faster than I have ever seen her, and I was right behind her as we ran out of the room.
Alana, Alana, Alana. She was the only thing on my mind as I followed her cry into the Cullens living room.
"Alana?" I asked desperately, seeing all of the Cullens huddled in a circle.
They all looked up when they realized Edward and I were here.
"I was trying to get her to go to sleep but she's so stubborn!" Rosalie said, not harshly, actually, if I didn't know any better, it sounded as if she were complimenting her. "Sort of like another certain someone I know . . ." she spoke with pure sincerity as she gazed at me.
Huh? Since when is Rosalie nice to me? I looked at Edward from the corner of my eye and he was as confused as I was.
But Alana was still crying and I was still desperate to calm her so I held my arms out. Rosalie handed her over to me and as soon as Alana was in my arms, she instantly stopped crying, though her face was still beet red.
The Cullen's were shocked, and Lala began playing with my hair like she normally does.
"Someone has spoiled her good . . ." Emmett said, and I blushed. I didn't exactly mean to . . .
"Oooo, she blushed! Man I've really missed that," Emmett chuckled.
"Shut up Emmett," I muttered at the same time Edward did, and everyone laughed which made me blush darker.
"Aw hell! Now they're both mind-readers!" Emmett continued in mock horror, would someone please just slap him?
"Annoyed Bella?" Jasper laughed, making me calm and then Esme slapped Emmett on the head.
"Stop embarrassing Bella! Apologize now," she ordered, and I don't think anyone would object to Esme when using that tone. I've really missed this family . . . my family.
"Sorry. But hey, I've really missed you," Emmett detto apologetically, coming to give me a hug.
Alana slapped his arm away right when he was about to avvolgere it around me.
"No." She ordered in a stern voice, her adorable face pinched up.
Then we all busted out laughing, because I don't think even Alice expected that.
Emmett put his arm up again, and just like before, Alana slapped it. Well, I did want someone to slap him before . . .
"No." Alana ordered again, her baby voice rising.
Emmett pouted his lip out, putting on a sad face.
"No," she detto again, and we laughed.
"Aw, and why not Lala?" I asked her.
"Lala?" Alice asked me.
"Yeah, it's her nickname that everyone sort of calls her by."
Alana yawned and started rubbing her eyes, my sign that she's sleepy.
"Well, I'd better get back home, Alana is getting tired," I detto reluctantly, not wanting to be away from them for one second.
"Hey, we'll be here, so te can come over tomorrow, okay?" Alice detto reassuringly.
She hugged me, being very careful since I was holding Alana, and she gave me a goodnight peck on the cheek. Alana giggled and Alice smiled at her.
"You can come over too," Alice told her, baciare her cheek too.
Alana started making her baby noises and I detto goodnight to everyone.
Edward carried the diaper bag out with him as he walked me to my truck - I'm guessing Alice must've drove it over here. But it was weird seeing Edward carry a rosa diaper bag . . . it's just something I never expected to see.
I strapped in Alana, who was already falling asleep, and walked to where Edward was standing with the truck door open for me.
"I would stay with te tonight but I think I need to hunt," he said, and it was evident in his dark eyes.
"Okay . . ." I mumbled, my face falling even though I know he needs to.
He cradled my face in his marble hands.
"But I can stay . . ."
"No, te need to hunt. I'll be fine," I said. "See te tomorrow?"
"Yes," he said, clearly happy about that fact, and I had to admit, I was too.
He gave me a soft, quick goodbye baciare and I got in.
He watched me as I drove away, and into the memorable night.
Plz rate and comment! After Natale is over and everything I will probably be able to make più chapters of this and Undying Love! ^_^