Today is my first o last giorno with Jacob, still to be decided.
See I am a unique person, I was conceived, carried and delivered da my mother whilst she was human and my father as a vampire, (I very nearly killed her, but my father saved her life da turning her), And that was when I met him... "My Jacob", we've been together everyday since I was born, I saw him as my big brother,protector... but now my feelings have changed towards him. I have started to notice him in a completely different light, I find his smile,eyes,russet coloured skin, smell irrestible. I catch myself just staring at him all the time, practically hyperventilating, wondering what it would feel like to have his big strong arms wrapped around me, his warm, beautiful lips pressed against mine and running my fingers through his lovely, long, thick hair, running my hands across his stunning muscles (oh man... those muscles), but how do I tell him that I feel this way? How do I tell him that the Amore I have for him has changed from the sisterly Amore I've always felt?. I'm almost certain that his feelings have changed also, but I could be just deluding myself, which is possible, for he hasn't detto anything to me about how he feels towards me. Well I'm just going to have to confront him and tell him how I feel....hopefully he feels the same way. We'll soon find out, He's picking me up from school this afternoon and what better time to ask him, Wish me luck. I'll keep te informed
I wish I could tell Nessie how I feel towards her, gone are the days that I just saw her as a little sister. Here are the days I see her as something more. I'm in Amore with her, she is my life,my soul and my sun. I want to spend the rest of my life making sure she is happy. Every time she looks at me with those beautiful Cioccolato eyes, the way her bronze coloured hair shines in the sun, her skin sparkles in certain lights, I'm fighting the urge to just pull her into my arms, baciare her beautiful lips until she's breathless, tell her that I want to feel her warm body against mine in EVERY, SINGLE, POSSIBLE WAY forever. But how do I tell her this?? how do I tell my Nessie that I am in Amore with her? Not as a sister but as my soulmate. I know that I've never had any problems with my openness o confidence before, so why start now. Ah ha! I'm picking her up after school and I'll have her all to myself maybe, just maybe I'll tell her then...But what if she doesn't want me the same way as I want her? what if she just wants to leave things as they are? I don't think I could cope with her rejection. I know that I have imprinted on her and that she was meant for me but... oh well I'll find out soon enough. I'll let te know how it went...