when we finally got to the airport, i was all but having a cuore attack. what had i done? i just wanted to kill myself right now. i could tell bella was angry at me, she stared silently as we sat awaiting our flight, i coulnt see her face but i knew she wanted to kill me just as much as i did. its ok, i continued to tell myself when we finally boarded and bella caught my hand but detto nothing. my brain replayed carsliles panicked tone as he spoke to me on the phone earlier and the fear within myself made me want to rip the monster that was urting her out now. all the way back se kept silent. i did too although i was so upset i just wanted to comfort her but i was to corardly.
da the time we reached the airport, everyone was waiting for us. i suddenly got a mix of shoting thoughts running through my mind
(edward what have te done!)
(oh my god, bella)
(i think my assumptions are correct)
everyone was shouting stuff at me at once, but i was stuck on the fact that campana, bell had run straight for rosalie! i couldnt understand it, but then i realised, inside rosalies head i could here
(yeah like im doing it for you! but dont worry when te die ill look after him. and i wont let anyone kill him)
i had to stop myself there and then from springing at her but i managed, but i couldnt be sure if it was jasper o not.
bella, rosalie, alice and me all rode in rosalies convertable, but rose refused to let me near her. he orderd me into the front where i was stuck with alices constant mind talking.
(i cant see her! im so sorry but i cant shes all fuzzy and it hurts my head! do te think shell survive this because im having the strangest feeling that rosalies not going to let us take it out what will happen to her?) i really didnt need this right now, roalie and bella would hear if i told her so i found a pen and scribled on her hand "later" she just nodded and thought (im so sorry edward, but it wasnt your falut, te have to remember that)
when we got back rosalie carried bella inside where she took her upstairs to change clothes as shed thrown up down herself. i already knew that rosalie was not going to let us take it out but i was hoping campana, bell had più sence. when she came down i asked
"bella? were going to take that thing out of te ok? te dont have to be scared i promise it will be ok soon."
i saw as her face started to puff out and her eyes swelled. "why?" she wimperd at me, i could see the agony on her face
"why?" i questioned, surey she didnt want it. shed detto she didnt want kids.
"you cant hurt him, he's mine and i want him" i almost retched at that but held my face i didnt know if i could talk but i tried "it will kill te bella" i managed to breathe out at last. she cant want it, what was i supposed to do. i heard the snide voice of rosalie again (lets face it edward, nobody cares if she dies) i gave her a glare and she just smiled before tuning to me and speaking aloud "you will get to bella over my dead body!" she shouted and carslile whined along with alice. id forgotten theyd missed half of the conversation. "bella it will kill te your only human, this thing will be half our kind, we dont know how strong it will be." she looked at him and just detto "i am stong enough" oh typical bella!
(there is a chance edward dont give up) but of corse there was no chance. id brused her already she wasnt up to full strength anyway. was she trying to make me die inside? not that i blamed her, i was a monster.
a few days passed and everything got worse. bella was now weaker and this featus was growng fast. an ultrasound wouldnt work and the thing was killing her, id tried begging, everyone had. we couldnt get passed rosalie because of emmets glance he gave us when we had threatend. then esme had been against it all creating it completely impssible for carslile to do anything with her in the way. my battle was lost. alice and emmet had done reasearch on what would happen, checking for any cases that had been reported perviously, but out of the few they had found every mother had ended up dead.