CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 minuti and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the secondo most powerful Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving o breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are te thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I detto again with più convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known te for almost for 8 years. Don’t te dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are te sure te want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. te asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed te and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. te guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. one da one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a minuto rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in letto and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t te dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t te dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I detto was right.” I screamed. “Don’t te DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just da the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know te don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, te have not failed. te have won. te have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, te belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed te have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make te a crazy monster. It makes te the wife that I Amore and makes te the amazing mother te are. It makes te the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if te had to take down Aro and te won. Though let us help te when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, te are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that te are not alone. That te have a whole big family downstairs and te have Neisse and I. I will always be da your side. If te let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble te are in. te got to help. Even though what te did out there was killer. It was amazing. te got to teach me how to do some of that crap te did.” I laughed and detto maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from te missy. I understand te are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn te were when te pushed us all away. Though just because te as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy orso that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the Amore had for my preferito brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about te come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I Amore te baby girl” I detto and hugged her again. Edward sat down successivo to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 minuti later
Everyone filled into the room taking any sede, sedile available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is Amore and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 minuti and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the secondo most powerful Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving o breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are te thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I detto again with più convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known te for almost for 8 years. Don’t te dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are te sure te want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. te asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed te and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. te guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. one da one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a minuto rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in letto and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t te dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t te dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I detto was right.” I screamed. “Don’t te DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just da the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know te don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, te have not failed. te have won. te have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, te belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed te have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make te a crazy monster. It makes te the wife that I Amore and makes te the amazing mother te are. It makes te the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if te had to take down Aro and te won. Though let us help te when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, te are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that te are not alone. That te have a whole big family downstairs and te have Neisse and I. I will always be da your side. If te let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble te are in. te got to help. Even though what te did out there was killer. It was amazing. te got to teach me how to do some of that crap te did.” I laughed and detto maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from te missy. I understand te are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn te were when te pushed us all away. Though just because te as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy orso that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the Amore had for my preferito brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about te come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I Amore te baby girl” I detto and hugged her again. Edward sat down successivo to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 minuti later
Everyone filled into the room taking any sede, sedile available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is Amore and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
1:please dont tell everybody that they are vamoire... if te do , te wont survive sor long....
2:dont ask alice stupid questions,she wont like it.....
3:only challenge emmet to an arm wrestling match is yuor a vampire o completely stupid and want to break yuor hand, but then of-urse carlisle will treat te and thats almost worth the pain...
4:DO NOT tell the volturi that nessie actualy is an immortal child, they just changed the kid every now and then so it looked like the original kid is growing..
2:dont ask alice stupid questions,she wont like it.....
3:only challenge emmet to an arm wrestling match is yuor a vampire o completely stupid and want to break yuor hand, but then of-urse carlisle will treat te and thats almost worth the pain...
4:DO NOT tell the volturi that nessie actualy is an immortal child, they just changed the kid every now and then so it looked like the original kid is growing..
9. “Okay, but if you’re going to get picky like that, te have to average in size, too. You’re so small, I’ll have to knock ten years off your total.” (Page 146)
8. “Here’s to responsibility. Twice a week.” (Page 164)
7. “They’re just cliff diving, Bella. Recreation. La Push doesn’t have a mall, te know.” (Page 171)
6. “I swear, they’re like hall monitors gone bad.” (Page 173)
5. “Why are te apologizing for bleeding?” (Page 188)
4
. “Bears don’t want to eat people. We don’t taste that good. Of course, te might be an exception. I bet you’d taste good.” (Page 200)
3. “So what are we doing tomorrow? Hiking o the ER?” (Page 203)
2. “I told him te were planning to corrupt my youthful innocence.” (Page 209)
1. “Who’s afraid of the big, bad wolf?” (Page 321)
Due to an overwhelming demand for the New Moon Soundtrack da fans, it is now being released this Friday, October 16th! It was to be released on October 20th. The news came via the official Twilight Twitter (with recente tweets da New Moon director Chris Weitz).
TWILIGHTERS ISNT THIS GREAT NEWS.I Amore TO GET THE SOUNDTRACK BEFORE THE MOVIE SO I ALREADY KNOW THE WORDS.OK PUT THE NEW Paramore UP AND START LEARNING THE NEW MOON SOUNDTRACK(DONT WORRY Paramore ILL STILL LISTEN TO YOU)
ALSO DONT FORGET THE LISTENING PARTY AT HOT TOPIC ON OCTOBER 15 NATIONWIDE.
TWILIGHTERS ISNT THIS GREAT NEWS.I Amore TO GET THE SOUNDTRACK BEFORE THE MOVIE SO I ALREADY KNOW THE WORDS.OK PUT THE NEW Paramore UP AND START LEARNING THE NEW MOON SOUNDTRACK(DONT WORRY Paramore ILL STILL LISTEN TO YOU)
ALSO DONT FORGET THE LISTENING PARTY AT HOT TOPIC ON OCTOBER 15 NATIONWIDE.
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