Did te ever felt like you're empty inside and his Amore is the only thing that could heal you?

I sometimes feel like that...In the night,when I'm all alone,I can't sleep and I start thinking about my life and my past and the bad things that happened to me and I need a hug and an:"It's ok,I'm here!Everything it's gonna be ok!Please,don't cry!" so much and all I have is my blanket,which is just hugging me,unable to speak.And then,whyle I cry I think about who could understand me and make me feel better and the only person that comes into my mind is Michael!And then I start crying even più and I feel so empty inside,like I'm just a brain and a body,without anything inside my heart!I need so badly that kind of Amore that's so pure and deep and innocent,and my parents are giving it to me but...It feels like it's not the righ one..I feel like MJ's Amore it's special and it could heal my lonelyness better than anyone's love!And knowing that he's gone and that's impossible,it breakes my cuore and makes me feel even più empty and lonely and...I end up crying alone in my blanket in the moonlight and asking God why did he made me so lonely...Don't te ever felt that,at least once?I think I did it to many times!"Just Amore her,How much can one bear...".