Sandra, if you ever read this, know that you are thought of very highly by all your friends, fans and loved ones. You have just realized how wrong you were about Jesse James and what his true character really is, and has been all along. What you thought he was and hoped he could become with your love and support, can never happen. Even after you married him and tried to give the guy some class, he remained exactly what he always was, a trashy, disturbed, and opportunistic dirtbag. Its not your fault, his character was already formed a long time ago and there is no one and nothing that will change who he is. I think he is a trashy, lowdown character with a dark side that craves numerous sexual encounters with strippers, women of low-moral and self value, tattooed bodies and disturbed minds. I think he is deeply disturbed himself. Learning the true character of someone that you chose to love and build a life with is one of the most crushing and earth shattering experiences anyone can have. I know, because this has happened to me. Forgivemess may only come after years and years have passed. Trying to "make it work" with him is not an option, because he will never be able to stop his compulsions to seek out what is dirty, troubled, lonely, disturbed, abusive, and perverse in women of low self-value. He will always gravitate to these types of women because that is WHO HE REALLY IS, and this is permanently etched into his character. I'm so sorry. I know he was tall and hunk; the affection probably felt good, but sometimes you unpeel the avocado and you find out the inside is rotten. Throw it out. We love you, please try to move on in strength and dignity.