Ok I wasn't going to write anymore but I really wasn't happy with the last chapter. So I decided to try again :)
End of Chapter 10
I don't know how much time passed, no one detto anything. Jasper continued to hold me, occasionally running his hands through my hair. I kept looking into the future, hoping that Edward would change his mind, maybe Carlisle would talk to him. No matter how much I looked everything stayed the same.
I had stopped looking, the pain cutting me in half, I couldn't handle it anymore. I decided to sit up and try to figure out where we were, and much to my surprise we were almost to Tanya's house.
"Alice?" I heard Rosalie say.
"Yes Rose?" I answered.
"I know that te two are the closest, is he going to be ok?" She sounded honestly concerned.
"I don't think so, I'm not sure. I can't see his future, he keeps changing things." I whispered.
"We're almost there, look te can see the house." Emmett said, the excitement in his voice.
I looked out the front window and saw the huge log house. I looked at Jasper and smiled slightly, I knew that staying here was only a temporary arrangement.
I closed my eyes one più time and focused on Edward. About 7 hours had passed since we left, I wasn't sure if he had talked to Bella yet. There wasn't any clarity with her when I focused on her, but when I focused on Edward I saw him running. I thought that he was somewhere in the south, maybe Louisiana o Texas.
I tried to make sense of this but I couldn't, why would he go south? Why go where there is più sun?
We pulled up front of the house and saw everyone standing waiting for us. Tanya, Irina, Kate, Carmen and lastly Eleazar. They all were standing with smiles on their faces, they obviously knew we were coming and came out to welcome us.
Emmett jumped out of the car as soon as it stopped and ran over to the group. Rosalie followed behind, excited to be somewhere new. Jasper climbed out next, turning back to look at me.
"You coming?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'll be along in a second. te go ahead." I detto as I tried to smile.
"Ok, remember I Amore te right?" He asked.
"I know Jazz, I'm just not in the mood to be around people right now. Go ahead, I'm just going to go for a walk." I detto as I looked around at the woods that bordered the property.
Jasper kissed me gently and climbed out of the car, walking over to greet our exteded family. I heard someone mention my name and Jasper began to explain that I needed to be alone for a while. They all started walking into the house, Tanya turning back to look at me before closing the door.
When everyone was inside and probably answering all their domande about why we left and why I was still in the car when I got out of the car and ran into the woods. My legs carried me as far away as I dared to get, I stopped when I found a rock that was big enough to hold me.
I looked around, wishing Edward was here because I knew that he would enjoy being out here away from Tanya.
I smiled a little as I thought about how long Tanya had been lusting after Edward. He was always such a gentleman to her, not leading her on yet being carefull about how he worded that he was not interested. I hoped that she wouldn't start pushing him again, I was sure that he wasn't ready for that yet. I felt myself smile at the thought of him turning her down again.
I laid back on the rock and looked around at the stars that were beginning to brighten the sky. I imagined Edward laying here when he left town origionally to get away from Isabella so that he wouldn't kill her.
I closed my eyes, focusing on Bella. I know he told me not to look but well he didn't always keep his promises so why should I. Plus he made it clear that he wasn't coming here so he would never know.
I focused on Bella and what her future held. It was the strangest thing I had seen, her future was so scrambled. One secondo she was laying in her bed, not moving o responding to anyone. The successivo secondo I saw her trying to sposta on, smiling at lunch with our friends.
I focused on that last vision the most, Bella smiling and recitazione as if nothing had changed. I really hoped that this would be the future that she choose.
I think I was on that rock for about 2 hours when I heard footsteps behind me. I jumped to my feet and took a defensive stance, not knowing who it was because they were still far enough away.
"Alice, can we talk?" Tanya asked.
"Oh Tanya, it's you. I'm really not in the mood to talk right now, I would rather be alone." I detto quietly.
"Emmett, Rosalie and Jasper told us what is happeneing. I came out because Carlisle and Esme just arrived and they are worried about you, and to tell te truth so are we." She detto as she walked out of the woods and came to sit beside me.
"I'm not the one everyone should worry about." I detto bitterly.
"Yes, they are più worried about Edward. However; they have never seen te Lost before." She explained.
"I'm not lost, I know where I am. I am the last person to worry about. They should worry about Bella, when I look I see her not responding to anyone. Her father and mother are trying to get her to respond but she just lies there and stares into space." I said, the sobs returning to my voice.
"They don't know what to do. Esme feels lost, she hasn't been without Edward and now she feels like she is loosing you. She can not handle feeling like her family is falling apart." She said.
"Hmph. She's not loosing me, and I think it has already fallen apart." I detto as I walked past her and started running back to the house.
When I walked in everyone turned to watch me. Jasper walked over and hugged me tightly. I rested my head against his chest, taking in his smell that always seemed to calm me.Esme and Carlisle came over and hugged me next, the fear mostrare in Esme's normally happy face.
"Can te see anything about him?" Esme asked.
"He's somewhere south,some where sunny. Texas possibly? I can't see what he's doing, he's blocking me from seeing his future." I detto quietly.
"Can he do that?" Rosalie asked.
"I didn't know he could now but when I look his future disappears. I think he is blocking me from seeing what he's doing so I don't find him." I whispered.
"And Bella?" Carlisle asked.
"I'm not suppose to look." I detto defensivly.
I took a deep breath and sighed before continuing. "She's crushed, she is not responding to anyone o anything." I detto as I walked over and sat successivo to Emmett who wrapped his arm around me.
Esme sighed and came to sit successivo to my feet. I felt my family supporting me and felt terribly guilty. They should be supporting Edward, not me.
I know this was probably pointless, but I grabbed my phone out of my pocked and dialed his number. It rang 7 times before the voicemail beeped.
"Edward it's Alice, call me please." I said.
"He's not answering any of us. We've all tried." Carlisle said.
We all sat around trying to figure out what our family would do now. Carlisle was saying that he would like to study again and Jasper agreed. Esme detto that a new house might be the thing to keep herself busy. Emmett and Rosalie wanted to stay here for a while, a get away for them I guess.
I wished that I could see everything like Emmett, like everything happened for a reason but there was always a bright side to everything. Right now nothing seemed bright, everything was dull and unhappy.
We all sat around talking for a few hours. Tanya told us that we could stay as long as we wanted, that we were not in the way. I didn't want to stay, I wanted to go find Edward. I wanted to fix everything and didn't care about what I promised to Edward.