okay guys, this is really short. im sorry, i've just had no time this week. please tell me what te think anyway :)
part 22
“If there was only some way to make te see that I can’t leave you.” I whispered. “Time, I suppose, will be the way to convince you.”
The corner of her mouth pulled up slightly. The idea must have pleased her. “Okay.” She detto agreeably.
I was glad to see her happier again but the pain was still flowing through me at full force.
A questioning look came into her eyes before she asked “So—since you’re staying. Can I have my stuff back?” she spoke in a falsely light tone.
Her attempt at a distraction was so transparent that I laughed, but the pain was still there.
“Your things were never gone,” I explained. “I knew it was wrong, since I promised te peace without reminders. It was stupid and childish, but I wanted to leave something of myself with you. The CD, the pictures, the tickets—they’re all under your floorboards.”
“Really?” surprise and happiness filled her face, a smile lighting her eyes.
I nodded, slightly cheered that she was so happy from finding out this trivial fact.
“I think,” she began slowly. “I’m not sure, but I wonder... I think maybe I knew it the whole time.”
part 23
Curiosity flickered and I tried to push the pain away. Bella was upset that I was in pain, but she shouldn’t be upset, I had already caused her far too much pain.
“What did te know?” I asked, trying to distract myself.
“Some part of me, my subconscious maybe, never stopped believing that te still cared whether I lived o died. That’s probably why I was hearing the voices.” She stated, while I immediately began questioning her sanity.
I remembered back to when she first found out what I was, how she was curious and not the least bit frightened. I had been unsure of her sanity then too. At least there were options. Carlisle knew the best psychologists, and I could visit her whenever I was allowed.
“Voices?” I asked in a flat tone.
“Well, just one voice. Yours. It’s a long story.” She seemed wary. I wondered if that had anything to do with the expression on my face. it was my fault this time, that she wasn’t experiencing normal things. Well, as normal as could be in the current circumstances.
“I’ve got time.” I said, trying to keep my voice as even as possible.
“It’s pretty pathetic.” She said, an odd look of relief in her eyes. What was she relived about?
I waited, knowing she would tell me.
She looked thoughtful for a secondo before starting.
“Do te remember what Alice detto about extreme sports?”
I spoke the words without inflection o emphasis. “You jumped off a cliff for fun.”
“Er, right.” She looked nervously at me. “And before that, with the motorcycle—”
“Motorcycle?” I cut in, trying to retain my calm.
“I guess I didn’t tell Alice about that bit.” she bit her lip, a sign of tension.
“No.” I answered, unable to form a complete sentence.
“Well, about that...See, I found that...when I was doing something dangerous o stupid...I could remember te più clearly.” She said, looking like she was confessing to murder. “I could remember how your voice sounded when te were angry. I could hear it, like te were right there successivo to me. Mostly I tried not to think about you, but this didn’t hurt so much—it was like te were protecting me again. Like te didn’t want me to be hurt. And, well, I wonder if the reason I could hear te so clearly was because, underneath it all, I always knew that te hadn’t stopped loving me.”
I was so appalled, my words came out sounding strangled. “You...were...risking your life...to hear—”
“Shh,” she interrupted me. “Hold on a second. I think I’m having an epiphany here.”
Her face looked thoughtful, and I struggled to remain quiet. I was not used to being so patient, it had been so long and I was out of practice. I was about to say something, unable to hold my tongue any longer, when a look of happiness and understanding washed across Bella’s face.
“Oh!” she exclaimed quietly.
“Bella?” I needed to know, now.
“Oh. Okay. I see.” She said, completely ignoring me and driving me insane at the same time.
“Your epiphany?” I asked, my voice sounding strained.
“You Amore me.” she stated simply.
I smiled. “Truly, I do.”
She smiled such a smile that it brightened her whole face. I took her warm face into my hands and kissed her until her cuore was beating at double time.
I leant my forehead against hers, both of us breathing harder than usual.
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part 22
“If there was only some way to make te see that I can’t leave you.” I whispered. “Time, I suppose, will be the way to convince you.”
The corner of her mouth pulled up slightly. The idea must have pleased her. “Okay.” She detto agreeably.
I was glad to see her happier again but the pain was still flowing through me at full force.
A questioning look came into her eyes before she asked “So—since you’re staying. Can I have my stuff back?” she spoke in a falsely light tone.
Her attempt at a distraction was so transparent that I laughed, but the pain was still there.
“Your things were never gone,” I explained. “I knew it was wrong, since I promised te peace without reminders. It was stupid and childish, but I wanted to leave something of myself with you. The CD, the pictures, the tickets—they’re all under your floorboards.”
“Really?” surprise and happiness filled her face, a smile lighting her eyes.
I nodded, slightly cheered that she was so happy from finding out this trivial fact.
“I think,” she began slowly. “I’m not sure, but I wonder... I think maybe I knew it the whole time.”
part 23
Curiosity flickered and I tried to push the pain away. Bella was upset that I was in pain, but she shouldn’t be upset, I had already caused her far too much pain.
“What did te know?” I asked, trying to distract myself.
“Some part of me, my subconscious maybe, never stopped believing that te still cared whether I lived o died. That’s probably why I was hearing the voices.” She stated, while I immediately began questioning her sanity.
I remembered back to when she first found out what I was, how she was curious and not the least bit frightened. I had been unsure of her sanity then too. At least there were options. Carlisle knew the best psychologists, and I could visit her whenever I was allowed.
“Voices?” I asked in a flat tone.
“Well, just one voice. Yours. It’s a long story.” She seemed wary. I wondered if that had anything to do with the expression on my face. it was my fault this time, that she wasn’t experiencing normal things. Well, as normal as could be in the current circumstances.
“I’ve got time.” I said, trying to keep my voice as even as possible.
“It’s pretty pathetic.” She said, an odd look of relief in her eyes. What was she relived about?
I waited, knowing she would tell me.
She looked thoughtful for a secondo before starting.
“Do te remember what Alice detto about extreme sports?”
I spoke the words without inflection o emphasis. “You jumped off a cliff for fun.”
“Er, right.” She looked nervously at me. “And before that, with the motorcycle—”
“Motorcycle?” I cut in, trying to retain my calm.
“I guess I didn’t tell Alice about that bit.” she bit her lip, a sign of tension.
“No.” I answered, unable to form a complete sentence.
“Well, about that...See, I found that...when I was doing something dangerous o stupid...I could remember te più clearly.” She said, looking like she was confessing to murder. “I could remember how your voice sounded when te were angry. I could hear it, like te were right there successivo to me. Mostly I tried not to think about you, but this didn’t hurt so much—it was like te were protecting me again. Like te didn’t want me to be hurt. And, well, I wonder if the reason I could hear te so clearly was because, underneath it all, I always knew that te hadn’t stopped loving me.”
I was so appalled, my words came out sounding strangled. “You...were...risking your life...to hear—”
“Shh,” she interrupted me. “Hold on a second. I think I’m having an epiphany here.”
Her face looked thoughtful, and I struggled to remain quiet. I was not used to being so patient, it had been so long and I was out of practice. I was about to say something, unable to hold my tongue any longer, when a look of happiness and understanding washed across Bella’s face.
“Oh!” she exclaimed quietly.
“Bella?” I needed to know, now.
“Oh. Okay. I see.” She said, completely ignoring me and driving me insane at the same time.
“Your epiphany?” I asked, my voice sounding strained.
“You Amore me.” she stated simply.
I smiled. “Truly, I do.”
She smiled such a smile that it brightened her whole face. I took her warm face into my hands and kissed her until her cuore was beating at double time.
I leant my forehead against hers, both of us breathing harder than usual.
im so sorry about the length, but please tell me what te think anyway :)
and, please if te haven't already can te please check out the eternal night spot. soon i will only be posting eternal night in that spot, so take a look if te want to keep reading.
hope te enjoyed, despite it's length :)
The Cullens house
Nessie's POV
It was a few minuti later that dad had walked, I gave him a weak smile, "Dad... can I ask te something?" I whisperd. "Sure! whatcha wanna ask?"
"Well, Jacob he umm asked me out on friday, do te think I can go?" I watched him, His smile dropped and his amber eyes turned to coal black. "No...It's..." But he didnt finished he just shook his head and walked away. "Dad!" I shouted and ran forward, I caught him da the sleve and spun him around. "Why???????" I asked. "No Ness! Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. and Werwolfs are forbidded to love!!!! te may never see that boy agian! Okay?!" He shouted, I have never seen him get so angry before... My face turned into a pout then a sad face, Tears poured out my eyes, I pushed past him and ran up to my room
Nessie's POV
It was a few minuti later that dad had walked, I gave him a weak smile, "Dad... can I ask te something?" I whisperd. "Sure! whatcha wanna ask?"
"Well, Jacob he umm asked me out on friday, do te think I can go?" I watched him, His smile dropped and his amber eyes turned to coal black. "No...It's..." But he didnt finished he just shook his head and walked away. "Dad!" I shouted and ran forward, I caught him da the sleve and spun him around. "Why???????" I asked. "No Ness! Vampiri#From Dracula to Buffy... and all creatures of the night in between. and Werwolfs are forbidded to love!!!! te may never see that boy agian! Okay?!" He shouted, I have never seen him get so angry before... My face turned into a pout then a sad face, Tears poured out my eyes, I pushed past him and ran up to my room
People wonder how I feel about being able to predict the future. Is it fun? Is it a curse?
Sometimes I stand for hours looking outside my window trying to figure out a way to prevent what I see as inevitable. The sun sets, then after a while, rises again. I still stand there, motionless, thinking, wondering.
Finally, I grab my scarf, avvolgere it around my neck, then go out with a smile and see my beloved standing there waiting for me,patiently. Jasper knows my turmoil.
I've learned to hide most of my emotions so those closest to me can't always see the dark clouds in my eyes as I see a vision. My smile hides alot. So, is it fun? No, but it's a gift that I hope I can use to help those that I love.
Sometimes I stand for hours looking outside my window trying to figure out a way to prevent what I see as inevitable. The sun sets, then after a while, rises again. I still stand there, motionless, thinking, wondering.
Finally, I grab my scarf, avvolgere it around my neck, then go out with a smile and see my beloved standing there waiting for me,patiently. Jasper knows my turmoil.
I've learned to hide most of my emotions so those closest to me can't always see the dark clouds in my eyes as I see a vision. My smile hides alot. So, is it fun? No, but it's a gift that I hope I can use to help those that I love.