I went to letto early that night, curling up on his sofa again.
It was still dark when I woke. I was groggy , but I knew it wasn’t near morning yet. My eyes closed, and I stretched, rolling over. It took me a secondo before I realized that the movement should have dumped me onto the floor. And that I was much too comfortable.
I rolled back over, trying to see. It was darker than last night—the clouds were to thick for the moon to shine through.
“Sorry,” he murmured so softly that his voice was part of the darkness, but I heard the tension underlying it. “I didn’t mean to wake you.”
I waited for the fury to boil up—I knew that this was the calm before the storm. The yellow sky before the tornado. Pretty soon the memory of everything would push its way forward, demanding not to be forgotten, and I would become angry, and so would he.
He waited for my response, body tense, bracing himself. Fury rolled up inside me, like a rip current, it was impossible to fight against. He was bracing himself, he who had caused all this anger in the first place. I decided to try to keep calm, keep my voice calm, not mostra him how incredibly angry I was. That would cause him confusion and pain—because he would not understand why I felt anger at him for keeping me from Jacob Black (or attempting to, I thought with a wry smile), and he would misinterpret it as real, pure Amore (which I felt, in a brotherly sort of way, but of course he wouldn’t think of that kind of love) , and his jealousy and anger and hurt would flare up, causing us to get into an argument.
I rolled over to face him, preparing myself. I would do best in this battle if I was able to see his expressions, his weaknesses. Like Jasper, I thought of this as a battle, strategically, except this was not physical.
I sat a few minutes, taking a few deep breaths, working to make my voice come out calm. Finally I was able to let out “Edward, we should talk,” without screaming.
He was suspicious at the tone of my voice and my use of words, and I knew exactly where his thoughts were going.
“About what?” he asked, wary. Fury tried to overtake me, and I knew that if I did not keep my mouth shut that I would scream at him. I took più deep breaths, willing my voice to be calm before I answered.
“About te having Alice babysit me,” I specified, maybe my voice was a bit too calm. Edward tensed, and I knew that he was thinking about a way to get out of this discussion. I wasn’t having that.
“I know why te did it—because te think Jacob won’t be able to control his temper. He can. He would never even think about hurting me,” I detto honestly, realizing too late that there was a hole in my words—realizing just before he pointed it out, when I didn’t have time to patch it up before he could stick his finger in it and rip it into a bigger hole, until my carefully planned, weaved sentences were all just a few threads, having been ripped to shreds, unacceptable and unable to make him understand, leading him to an easy victory in this argument.
“He wouldn’t think of hurting you, Bella. That’s the point I’m trying to make. He could become so angry that he wouldn’t be able to control his actions—wouldn’t be able to stop himself, o realize what he was doing before it had already happened. Before te were already injured, perhaps seriously.” I knew he was going to tear my knitted cloth of reassurances apart, row da row, so I cut him off.
“So, whatever, did te ever think that maybe te could have asked me before te go and have Alice take me on a sleepover I don’t even want to be at? The sleepover isn’t exactly why I’m mad—it wasn’t half bad, the Cibo was good—the reason I’m so mad is because one, te think te have to get Alice to babysit me every time you’re away, which shows te don’t trust me, and two, that te didn’t even bother to ask, which could give the impression that te couldn’t be so bothered with my opinion, and that three, te paid her off for it—bribed her!” I rushed out, that was probably a longer speech than he would’ve expected, but what did he expect? For me to be whistling happily, dancing around?
“Bella, te would have detto no. te and I both know that, and Alice saw it when I briefly thought about asking you.” That was true, I could hardly argue fairly.
“And I do trust you, it’s just that the dog is unpredictable. Alice can’t see him, o te when te are with him,” he pointed out. That was also true, not arguable.
“I am so bothered with your opinion, I didn’t ask because you’re so stubborn that you’d still try to drive a car without gas,” he laughed a bit, but I glared;this was hardly a laughing matter. Though that was also true. My knitted plan was being picked away.
“And the Porsche was a gift, not a bribe, I promised her I’d buy it for her, so technically, that isn’t bribing.” Also true. Fine. He wanted to make excuses that were acceptable because they were true, then fine. We’d fight fuoco with just that—fire.
“Well, te still could have at least asked, to mostra that te cared. And don’t te think I want to be at somewhere other than your house, with some people other than your family when you’re away?” I countered, smiling smugly when I saw that he was temporarily stumped. But I hadn’t won. No, not da a long shot had I won.
“You could always stay at your house with Alice, o go out with Jessica o Angela (as long as she accompanied you),” he fired knocking mine straight out the air like a bird in hunting season, smiling when he saw that I couldn’t come up with a counterattack for that. I had to look carefully, from every angle, before I answered.
“That’s the point. Alice is a nice, bubbly person, but I’d get tired of her eventually. Plus, I don’t think I’d like shopping every time you’re away, and getting makeovers constantly. It would be torturing,” I used an excuse that was believable because it was true.
“You could have another one of my family members, perhaps Emmett o Rosalie o Jasper,” he smiled, while I glared.
“No. I’m not going to hang out with your family all the time, every time you’re away, just because te don’t like me seeing Jacob. Maybe I’ll just have to see him on my own. Charlie won’t mind. I guess I’ll just have to refuse your offers—and let it be known to Charlie that I did, wont I?” It wasn’t even a threat. I would do this, I was that stubborn I was a little unsure about it, though, I was not sure it was the best option. It would hurt Edward--and I would hate that. I would hate being selfish enough to hurt him, the only one who could be so endlessly selfless to me and not complain once, the only male who had ever showed me unconditional Amore in più that a familial way besides . . . Jacob.
“I guess I’ll have to disable your car and leave te without a choice, not even telling Charlie,” he shot back, but I knew that under his anger, he didn’t like to leave me without a choice. It was mean and selfish (would I ever stop being so?) but I used this as an advantage.
“I guess I’ll just have to walk there. te know I don’t like to be left without a choice, Edward. And if I have to go to drastic measures, drastic measures are what I will go to,” I told him honestly. He glared, turning to stare up at the ceiling, angry. But there was something else in his expression, something besides anger . . .
“You’re jealous?!” I exclaimed when I realized what it was in his expression. His expression turned even sourer, if that were possible.
“You’re jealous?” I asked, shocked, più serious now. He ground his teeth and nodded slowly, still glaring at the ceiling.
“Why?” I asked, baffled. What did he have to be jealous of? We were inseperable-- we had been through almost everything, and our Amore was a blow-your-mind, change-your-life-forever,- give-anything-to-make-you-happy kind, and he was jealous of me being with a friend?
“Because Bella, he can give te so many things that I can’t. He can hold te without freezing you, o having to worry about crushing you. He can be close to you, smelling your scent, without feeling bloodlust. He can interact physically. He can have children with you, and te wouldn’t have to change a thing to be happy with him! You’d both live happy lives, grow old, and die, like humans should. And even with the danger his phasing and temper poses, he’s ultimately better for you. Even if te do Amore me, in più that a brotherly sense as te do him, I can’t help feeling jealous.” I was surprised. This was the longest speech Edward had ever dato on the topic of Jacob without cutting himself off in disgust and anger.
“I want to be with te Edward. It’s my decision. So stop being jealous. Even when he can give me those things, I Amore you. So just stop, okay?” I heard an "awe"ing, maybe from Esme.
“Sure, I’ll try, if te wish for me to. And thank te for your reassurances. But still, I’m not sure I’ll let te go near him too much.”
I sighed. This was the best answer I was going to get, I could tell. So maybe we’ll have to do this the hard way.
It was still dark when I woke. I was groggy , but I knew it wasn’t near morning yet. My eyes closed, and I stretched, rolling over. It took me a secondo before I realized that the movement should have dumped me onto the floor. And that I was much too comfortable.
I rolled back over, trying to see. It was darker than last night—the clouds were to thick for the moon to shine through.
“Sorry,” he murmured so softly that his voice was part of the darkness, but I heard the tension underlying it. “I didn’t mean to wake you.”
I waited for the fury to boil up—I knew that this was the calm before the storm. The yellow sky before the tornado. Pretty soon the memory of everything would push its way forward, demanding not to be forgotten, and I would become angry, and so would he.
He waited for my response, body tense, bracing himself. Fury rolled up inside me, like a rip current, it was impossible to fight against. He was bracing himself, he who had caused all this anger in the first place. I decided to try to keep calm, keep my voice calm, not mostra him how incredibly angry I was. That would cause him confusion and pain—because he would not understand why I felt anger at him for keeping me from Jacob Black (or attempting to, I thought with a wry smile), and he would misinterpret it as real, pure Amore (which I felt, in a brotherly sort of way, but of course he wouldn’t think of that kind of love) , and his jealousy and anger and hurt would flare up, causing us to get into an argument.
I rolled over to face him, preparing myself. I would do best in this battle if I was able to see his expressions, his weaknesses. Like Jasper, I thought of this as a battle, strategically, except this was not physical.
I sat a few minutes, taking a few deep breaths, working to make my voice come out calm. Finally I was able to let out “Edward, we should talk,” without screaming.
He was suspicious at the tone of my voice and my use of words, and I knew exactly where his thoughts were going.
“About what?” he asked, wary. Fury tried to overtake me, and I knew that if I did not keep my mouth shut that I would scream at him. I took più deep breaths, willing my voice to be calm before I answered.
“About te having Alice babysit me,” I specified, maybe my voice was a bit too calm. Edward tensed, and I knew that he was thinking about a way to get out of this discussion. I wasn’t having that.
“I know why te did it—because te think Jacob won’t be able to control his temper. He can. He would never even think about hurting me,” I detto honestly, realizing too late that there was a hole in my words—realizing just before he pointed it out, when I didn’t have time to patch it up before he could stick his finger in it and rip it into a bigger hole, until my carefully planned, weaved sentences were all just a few threads, having been ripped to shreds, unacceptable and unable to make him understand, leading him to an easy victory in this argument.
“He wouldn’t think of hurting you, Bella. That’s the point I’m trying to make. He could become so angry that he wouldn’t be able to control his actions—wouldn’t be able to stop himself, o realize what he was doing before it had already happened. Before te were already injured, perhaps seriously.” I knew he was going to tear my knitted cloth of reassurances apart, row da row, so I cut him off.
“So, whatever, did te ever think that maybe te could have asked me before te go and have Alice take me on a sleepover I don’t even want to be at? The sleepover isn’t exactly why I’m mad—it wasn’t half bad, the Cibo was good—the reason I’m so mad is because one, te think te have to get Alice to babysit me every time you’re away, which shows te don’t trust me, and two, that te didn’t even bother to ask, which could give the impression that te couldn’t be so bothered with my opinion, and that three, te paid her off for it—bribed her!” I rushed out, that was probably a longer speech than he would’ve expected, but what did he expect? For me to be whistling happily, dancing around?
“Bella, te would have detto no. te and I both know that, and Alice saw it when I briefly thought about asking you.” That was true, I could hardly argue fairly.
“And I do trust you, it’s just that the dog is unpredictable. Alice can’t see him, o te when te are with him,” he pointed out. That was also true, not arguable.
“I am so bothered with your opinion, I didn’t ask because you’re so stubborn that you’d still try to drive a car without gas,” he laughed a bit, but I glared;this was hardly a laughing matter. Though that was also true. My knitted plan was being picked away.
“And the Porsche was a gift, not a bribe, I promised her I’d buy it for her, so technically, that isn’t bribing.” Also true. Fine. He wanted to make excuses that were acceptable because they were true, then fine. We’d fight fuoco with just that—fire.
“Well, te still could have at least asked, to mostra that te cared. And don’t te think I want to be at somewhere other than your house, with some people other than your family when you’re away?” I countered, smiling smugly when I saw that he was temporarily stumped. But I hadn’t won. No, not da a long shot had I won.
“You could always stay at your house with Alice, o go out with Jessica o Angela (as long as she accompanied you),” he fired knocking mine straight out the air like a bird in hunting season, smiling when he saw that I couldn’t come up with a counterattack for that. I had to look carefully, from every angle, before I answered.
“That’s the point. Alice is a nice, bubbly person, but I’d get tired of her eventually. Plus, I don’t think I’d like shopping every time you’re away, and getting makeovers constantly. It would be torturing,” I used an excuse that was believable because it was true.
“You could have another one of my family members, perhaps Emmett o Rosalie o Jasper,” he smiled, while I glared.
“No. I’m not going to hang out with your family all the time, every time you’re away, just because te don’t like me seeing Jacob. Maybe I’ll just have to see him on my own. Charlie won’t mind. I guess I’ll just have to refuse your offers—and let it be known to Charlie that I did, wont I?” It wasn’t even a threat. I would do this, I was that stubborn I was a little unsure about it, though, I was not sure it was the best option. It would hurt Edward--and I would hate that. I would hate being selfish enough to hurt him, the only one who could be so endlessly selfless to me and not complain once, the only male who had ever showed me unconditional Amore in più that a familial way besides . . . Jacob.
“I guess I’ll have to disable your car and leave te without a choice, not even telling Charlie,” he shot back, but I knew that under his anger, he didn’t like to leave me without a choice. It was mean and selfish (would I ever stop being so?) but I used this as an advantage.
“I guess I’ll just have to walk there. te know I don’t like to be left without a choice, Edward. And if I have to go to drastic measures, drastic measures are what I will go to,” I told him honestly. He glared, turning to stare up at the ceiling, angry. But there was something else in his expression, something besides anger . . .
“You’re jealous?!” I exclaimed when I realized what it was in his expression. His expression turned even sourer, if that were possible.
“You’re jealous?” I asked, shocked, più serious now. He ground his teeth and nodded slowly, still glaring at the ceiling.
“Why?” I asked, baffled. What did he have to be jealous of? We were inseperable-- we had been through almost everything, and our Amore was a blow-your-mind, change-your-life-forever,- give-anything-to-make-you-happy kind, and he was jealous of me being with a friend?
“Because Bella, he can give te so many things that I can’t. He can hold te without freezing you, o having to worry about crushing you. He can be close to you, smelling your scent, without feeling bloodlust. He can interact physically. He can have children with you, and te wouldn’t have to change a thing to be happy with him! You’d both live happy lives, grow old, and die, like humans should. And even with the danger his phasing and temper poses, he’s ultimately better for you. Even if te do Amore me, in più that a brotherly sense as te do him, I can’t help feeling jealous.” I was surprised. This was the longest speech Edward had ever dato on the topic of Jacob without cutting himself off in disgust and anger.
“I want to be with te Edward. It’s my decision. So stop being jealous. Even when he can give me those things, I Amore you. So just stop, okay?” I heard an "awe"ing, maybe from Esme.
“Sure, I’ll try, if te wish for me to. And thank te for your reassurances. But still, I’m not sure I’ll let te go near him too much.”
I sighed. This was the best answer I was going to get, I could tell. So maybe we’ll have to do this the hard way.
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I feeling really bored right now, so i guess i thought about all of te guys/girls :D
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I feeling really bored right now, so i guess i thought about all of te guys/girls :D
I want to congratulate te all for making such awesome and great fanfiction. So it must be said, so everyone can read about you're fanfiction :-)
I read most of the fanfiction (allot actually) myself and i just adore them i sometimes print them out and start Leggere them like a book, it's really amazing that people are still so broad-minded :o)
*****To all fanfiction writers out there continue the great job and don't ever stop :D lol and to the people who want to start a fanfiction on there own, good luck and enjoy what te write :D*****
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i hope yOu like it!!!
i didn't know how my life will be has vampire, how things should work with Charlie and Mom, keeping my self away from then is torturing my self.
i felt like i'm trapped without a exit
the only thing thatr keep me strong is my family
Edward and Rennesme, nOw that they are not in mOre danger i feel più in peace.
But what will i shOuld tell charlie when the time to sposta arrive?
zappa he react to this, i think that he already know what we really are, but he is too scared to detto it o just think about it.
But what i really know right now is that we are sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza and will start our Happy Ever After.
I think!!!!
i hope yOu like it!!!
i didn't know how my life will be has vampire, how things should work with Charlie and Mom, keeping my self away from then is torturing my self.
i felt like i'm trapped without a exit
the only thing thatr keep me strong is my family
Edward and Rennesme, nOw that they are not in mOre danger i feel più in peace.
But what will i shOuld tell charlie when the time to sposta arrive?
zappa he react to this, i think that he already know what we really are, but he is too scared to detto it o just think about it.
But what i really know right now is that we are sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza and will start our Happy Ever After.
I think!!!!
im going to put an introduction to this one up today. it has to do with twilight and a band called Paramore(my two fav things-paramore and twilight)most of my Friends like my Scrivere but when i do post i would like some criticizing commenti for me to improve with.
Thanks
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The 22-year-old British actor and his blockbuster film, Twilight, are taking center stage in the issue. The movie made over $70 million at the box office opening weekend - a record for director Catherine Hardwicke, who is now the only female director in history to have a film gross that high.
As Kristen Stewart and Robert take a mini-break for the Thanksgiving holiday, Robert is mostrare a bit of the rebel in him. He shared, “‘I cannot wait to cut my hair. It’s so annoying! I was at a foto shoot the other day, and people were saying, ‘They say we can’t touch your hair. te have trademarked hair!’ No, I don’t.”
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Bigger than the latest Indiana Jones. Bigger than the biggest James Bond. That's how big Twilight was yesterday.
The $37 million vampire flick, expected to have a killer opening day, had a monster opening day, grossing an estimated $35 million, Exhibitor Relations reported. One-fifth of that gross, o $7 million, came from Friday midnight screenings.
The box-office tracking firm detto a $75 million Friday-Sunday gross was now a possibility. Going into Friday, $60 million was considered the movie's best-case scenario.
When the counting's done, Twilight's Friday take may rank as the 14th o 15th biggest opener of all time, having surpassed the debuts of Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull ($25 million) and Quantum of Solace ($27 million), to name two recente blockbusters.
Bolt, the animated talking-dog movie, was curbed da Twilight, grossing $7 million on Friday, Exhibitor Relations said.
ok, i know she loves both but its probably ovious who she loves more, but im not sure is it edward o jacob.
i think that if she chooses edward like she did in eclipse, there will be pain for not being with jake, but she already went through not being with edward and it almost killed her, and at the end of elcipse she had pain but it wasnt as bad. like she detto when edward asked her,
" are te sure te made the right choice, i have never seen te in so much pain"
and she says "I have known worse pain"
does that mean, the worse pain was when edward left her
does anyone get what im trying to ask, if not ill try to explain better
i think that if she chooses edward like she did in eclipse, there will be pain for not being with jake, but she already went through not being with edward and it almost killed her, and at the end of elcipse she had pain but it wasnt as bad. like she detto when edward asked her,
" are te sure te made the right choice, i have never seen te in so much pain"
and she says "I have known worse pain"
does that mean, the worse pain was when edward left her
does anyone get what im trying to ask, if not ill try to explain better