What should I do...?

Alright I know when a parent passes away it hurts like a bitch! The first thing te gotta do is accept they will not be around anyway. te will never get passed this if u keep holding onto that tiny feeling inside te that thinks she is coming back. Unfortunatly its not going to happen. successivo start thinking positivley. Try and look inoltrare, avanti and stop thinking te will never sposta past this. Finaly find someone te can talk to and go to when te are having panic attacks like this, never bottle things up always try and get your feelings out somehow <3
hope this helped somewhat (:

Well I can not even start to understand what te are feeling as both my parents are alive however my nan died when I was 3. For many years I never thought about it but then a few years fa I found myself feeling sad she had gone so now on the anniversary of her death the 15 February each anno I go into a church and light a candle whisper to her tell her my problems tell her I am thinking about her as if she is there with me. For me this is enough that I can then go another 365 days without thinking about her too much. May be te could do something similar. I do hope your feelings get better but it will take time and te must remember it is only a anno fa which really is not much time at all.

I can't pretend to understand your pain, since both my parents are alive and no one close to me has died since I was too young to remember it, but I'll try and help.

It sounds like you're struggling to sposta on and accept what's happened. I think if te accept that she's gone, and focus on what you're going to do in the future. I doubt your mum would have wanted te to spend your time grieving- she'd have wanted te to go and live your life to the full and enjoy your life without her. As in the risposte before this, te could do something to remember her- perhaps te could make a scrapbook of pictures of te together that te could look through on her birthday, and think about her then- you're allowed to grieve and be sad. But then focus on what te want to do with the future. Look at what te still have in your life- friends, the rest of your family, your hobbies and talents- focus on these rather than your grief, but give yourself that time to be sad and think abotu her.

Hope this is at all helpful.
All the best <3