Stylish boy

Why do your life's have to be all despert and sad and hurtfull? Friends Sometimes don't help us o can't help us and we do what we do. When my mom died it was when I stared to cut my self I was 8 years old and I still do it sometimes I feel hurtful and guillty like it was my falt that she died I don't know why. I have so many senza risposta domande and I don't know what to do why do ur lives have to be so confusing? Don't u ever wonder why?I have a friend that still has her parents and they just hit her and she got tired of it and tried to kill her self a way untill I stopped her and detto " u can't do it I'm going to be all alone and u r the only one that understands me and I to u" it was true so she didn't do it and lives with her aunt now why fo we have so much bad luck why us and not the ones that r not emo?