Chapter 5: Forgiveness
Cuddy gave Thirteen a couple of hours to cool off before she went back into her room. She entered and began to speak to her daughter.
“Remy I really want to be here for te and talk to te please let me do that.”
“What is there to talk about te gave me up! Why do te care so much now? Where were te the first twenty-five years of my life? Please leave.”
“No!”
Thirteen shifted in her letto and then glared back at Cuddy.
“Fine if te won’t leave then get me a cup of water and the TV remote I’m going to watch TV. te can… sit there!”
Cuddy got up and got Thirteen a cup of water and the remote and handed them to her.
“Please just let me talk to te I want to be your mother and make up for Lost time please give me a chance.”
“Why should I? te didn’t give me one!”
“Remy that’s not fair.”
“Call me Thirteen please.”
“Okay Thirteen te can never understand how much I regret not keeping te but look how good te turned out. You’re a doctor! te save lives te should be proud of yourself I know I’m proud of you!”
“Whatever I’m too tired to fight you. te know Cuddy I never admired anyone the way I admired you. te can walk into a room wearing the sexiest of outfits and still have everyone’s full attention on what te are saying. I looked up to te and strived to be più like te but now… I don’t know what to think of you. As mad as it makes me that te gave me up te did give me a good life and I did turn out well. I…I can’t hate you.”
“You don’t know how happy it makes me to hear te say that. I just want to hold te and Amore te like a mother should. I was so scared te weren’t going to make it and I blamed myself. te may not understand it but I Amore te Thirteen te are my little girl and not a giorno went da when I didn’t wonder how te were.”
“Then why did te never try to contact me?”
“I couldn’t do that to te it would have just confused te and te were too young I had to now because te work for me.”
Cuddy realized Thirteen was crying and walked over and hugged her. Surprisingly Thirteen didn’t back away. She gave in and hugged her mother back.
“I forgive te Cuddy but it still hurts really badly.”
“I’m sorry I hurt te and House Thirteen I had no right to keep te from him but it was the best for te and for him.”
“How am I going to work here now I can’t work under my father it’s a conflict of interest are te going to fuoco me?”
“No, I’m going to transfer te to another department te will still be my employee but te will see your own patients it will kind of be like having your own practice. You’re ready te are an incredible doctor.”
“Cuddy this might seem odd because I’ve been so bitchy but can te just hold me? I feel horrible and just want to cry.”
Cuddy sat back down beside Thirteen, wrapped her arms around her, and laid her daughters head on her chest.
“I’m here honey te can cry all te need to. I plan on being here for te whenever te need me.”
House walked in and saw Cuddy sitting on Thirteen’s letto he smiled for a secondo and then entered the room.
“How are te ladies doing?”
“Hi House, Cuddy and I were just talking and… I don’t resent te guys. I’m just really hurt da what happened.”
“You have every right to be I was hurt also in più ways than one but Cuddy did the right thing. We were in no condition to raise a baby back then. Tom and Carol did a great job raising you; te turned out to be a great person and a really good doctor. That’s why I picked te for my team. I will say this though Cuddy loves te più than anything so please let her be your mom that’s all she wants.”
“I’m not comfortable with calling te guys mom and dad yet so I will just call te Cuddy and House. I’m willing to forgive Cuddy and let her in but it’s going to take some time.”
“All I ask is that te accept me Thirteen. House is right I do Amore te very much and only want to be your mom. I just want to make up for all the years I wasn’t there. I’m so proud of te and am so glad te are okay. You’re such a strong person and I know te can handle this.”
“I don’t feel very strong right now all I want to do is cry but you’re right I can handle anything. Cuddy, can I have a moment alone with House? I need to talk to him.”
“Sure I’ll be outside if te need anything just call for me.”
Cuddy left the room and waited outside while Thirteen and House talked.
“House can I ask te something?”
“It depends... of course ask away.”
“Are te glad I’m your daughter?”
House stood in silence and thought of how to answer the question.
“Well I… Thirteen I’m just as shocked da this as te are. One giorno you’re merely my employee and now you’re my daughter. It’s very weird. I guess yeah I’m glad it’s just going to take some time for me to accept this as well. I’m not exactly the father type I… don’t know how to treat te o what to do te will have to help me kiddo.”
“Well te can start da giving me a hug.”
“Oh… uh okay.”
House walked over and gave Thirteen a hug.
“Thanks. I’m just really confused right now and feel real dependant I just want someone to hold me.”
House continued to hug her and then began to speak.
“Well for the first time in my life I have no idea what the hell I am doing. There should be a parenting manual but unfortunately there isn’t o I didn’t get a copy.”
“You’re doing well I don’t blame te at all te didn’t even know I existed until I started working for you. What would te have done if te had known about me? Would te have wanted me?”
House sighed.
“I’m sorry Thirteen but the only answer I can give te is… I don’t know.”
“I understand te were young and had your life to live I probably would have screwed things up for you.”
“No. I would have screwed te up and te would probably be working the streets had I had anything to do with te upbringing.”
“I highly doubt that te would have been a good dad. te will be a good dad. Can I ask te another domanda though?”
“Sure but only one.”
“Are te still in Amore with Cuddy?”
House stood up and started to pace around the room.
“Well I… apart of me has always loved her. That beautiful hair, those gorgeous eyes, and that smile, not to mention her smoking hot body. Yes I do still Amore her and she knows it. She captured my cuore twenty-six years fa and has had it ever since I was just too proud to do anything about it. Our bantering back and forth daily is the closest thing I have had to having her so… it works. Is that good enough?”
“Yes. Despite the fact that it hurts knowing my whole life has been a lie I forgive both of you.
Cuddy gave Thirteen a couple of hours to cool off before she went back into her room. She entered and began to speak to her daughter.
“Remy I really want to be here for te and talk to te please let me do that.”
“What is there to talk about te gave me up! Why do te care so much now? Where were te the first twenty-five years of my life? Please leave.”
“No!”
Thirteen shifted in her letto and then glared back at Cuddy.
“Fine if te won’t leave then get me a cup of water and the TV remote I’m going to watch TV. te can… sit there!”
Cuddy got up and got Thirteen a cup of water and the remote and handed them to her.
“Please just let me talk to te I want to be your mother and make up for Lost time please give me a chance.”
“Why should I? te didn’t give me one!”
“Remy that’s not fair.”
“Call me Thirteen please.”
“Okay Thirteen te can never understand how much I regret not keeping te but look how good te turned out. You’re a doctor! te save lives te should be proud of yourself I know I’m proud of you!”
“Whatever I’m too tired to fight you. te know Cuddy I never admired anyone the way I admired you. te can walk into a room wearing the sexiest of outfits and still have everyone’s full attention on what te are saying. I looked up to te and strived to be più like te but now… I don’t know what to think of you. As mad as it makes me that te gave me up te did give me a good life and I did turn out well. I…I can’t hate you.”
“You don’t know how happy it makes me to hear te say that. I just want to hold te and Amore te like a mother should. I was so scared te weren’t going to make it and I blamed myself. te may not understand it but I Amore te Thirteen te are my little girl and not a giorno went da when I didn’t wonder how te were.”
“Then why did te never try to contact me?”
“I couldn’t do that to te it would have just confused te and te were too young I had to now because te work for me.”
Cuddy realized Thirteen was crying and walked over and hugged her. Surprisingly Thirteen didn’t back away. She gave in and hugged her mother back.
“I forgive te Cuddy but it still hurts really badly.”
“I’m sorry I hurt te and House Thirteen I had no right to keep te from him but it was the best for te and for him.”
“How am I going to work here now I can’t work under my father it’s a conflict of interest are te going to fuoco me?”
“No, I’m going to transfer te to another department te will still be my employee but te will see your own patients it will kind of be like having your own practice. You’re ready te are an incredible doctor.”
“Cuddy this might seem odd because I’ve been so bitchy but can te just hold me? I feel horrible and just want to cry.”
Cuddy sat back down beside Thirteen, wrapped her arms around her, and laid her daughters head on her chest.
“I’m here honey te can cry all te need to. I plan on being here for te whenever te need me.”
House walked in and saw Cuddy sitting on Thirteen’s letto he smiled for a secondo and then entered the room.
“How are te ladies doing?”
“Hi House, Cuddy and I were just talking and… I don’t resent te guys. I’m just really hurt da what happened.”
“You have every right to be I was hurt also in più ways than one but Cuddy did the right thing. We were in no condition to raise a baby back then. Tom and Carol did a great job raising you; te turned out to be a great person and a really good doctor. That’s why I picked te for my team. I will say this though Cuddy loves te più than anything so please let her be your mom that’s all she wants.”
“I’m not comfortable with calling te guys mom and dad yet so I will just call te Cuddy and House. I’m willing to forgive Cuddy and let her in but it’s going to take some time.”
“All I ask is that te accept me Thirteen. House is right I do Amore te very much and only want to be your mom. I just want to make up for all the years I wasn’t there. I’m so proud of te and am so glad te are okay. You’re such a strong person and I know te can handle this.”
“I don’t feel very strong right now all I want to do is cry but you’re right I can handle anything. Cuddy, can I have a moment alone with House? I need to talk to him.”
“Sure I’ll be outside if te need anything just call for me.”
Cuddy left the room and waited outside while Thirteen and House talked.
“House can I ask te something?”
“It depends... of course ask away.”
“Are te glad I’m your daughter?”
House stood in silence and thought of how to answer the question.
“Well I… Thirteen I’m just as shocked da this as te are. One giorno you’re merely my employee and now you’re my daughter. It’s very weird. I guess yeah I’m glad it’s just going to take some time for me to accept this as well. I’m not exactly the father type I… don’t know how to treat te o what to do te will have to help me kiddo.”
“Well te can start da giving me a hug.”
“Oh… uh okay.”
House walked over and gave Thirteen a hug.
“Thanks. I’m just really confused right now and feel real dependant I just want someone to hold me.”
House continued to hug her and then began to speak.
“Well for the first time in my life I have no idea what the hell I am doing. There should be a parenting manual but unfortunately there isn’t o I didn’t get a copy.”
“You’re doing well I don’t blame te at all te didn’t even know I existed until I started working for you. What would te have done if te had known about me? Would te have wanted me?”
House sighed.
“I’m sorry Thirteen but the only answer I can give te is… I don’t know.”
“I understand te were young and had your life to live I probably would have screwed things up for you.”
“No. I would have screwed te up and te would probably be working the streets had I had anything to do with te upbringing.”
“I highly doubt that te would have been a good dad. te will be a good dad. Can I ask te another domanda though?”
“Sure but only one.”
“Are te still in Amore with Cuddy?”
House stood up and started to pace around the room.
“Well I… apart of me has always loved her. That beautiful hair, those gorgeous eyes, and that smile, not to mention her smoking hot body. Yes I do still Amore her and she knows it. She captured my cuore twenty-six years fa and has had it ever since I was just too proud to do anything about it. Our bantering back and forth daily is the closest thing I have had to having her so… it works. Is that good enough?”
“Yes. Despite the fact that it hurts knowing my whole life has been a lie I forgive both of you.
“Is this…” Spencer paused. Her voice was a throaty whisper. “Is this all we’ll ever have?” Remy’s eyes met hers. “Do te want more?” Remy asked.
Suddenly Spencer’s face became like a child’s full of tenderness and vulnerability. In that moment that followed Remy felt a bond to her like nothing else. For a long while they sat without speaking. They stared silently at their intertwined hands.
“I Amore you” Spencer detto softly. Remy grew very still. Spencer couldn’t see her face.
“Remy?” She lifted her chin. “Look at me”
Her eyes told her all she needed to know. As they sat there in the faded light of dusk, they both believed in happiness.
Suddenly Spencer’s face became like a child’s full of tenderness and vulnerability. In that moment that followed Remy felt a bond to her like nothing else. For a long while they sat without speaking. They stared silently at their intertwined hands.
“I Amore you” Spencer detto softly. Remy grew very still. Spencer couldn’t see her face.
“Remy?” She lifted her chin. “Look at me”
Her eyes told her all she needed to know. As they sat there in the faded light of dusk, they both believed in happiness.
