The mailman delivered my copy of Michael Jackson's Vision today. Coming home in a winter storm, I found the package hanging from the door handle in a rubber band and I smiled like a little kid on Christmas.
With my cheeks still blushing from the cold I opened it and seeing the holograms of the cover my smile got even broader. I was happy the casing was made with such quality detail and it brought back many happy memories. Then my smile froze. There was a promotion sticker on the cover. It read: "The Definitive DVD Collection." Definitive. As in never again, ever no more, no further. And so the sadness overtook me again and I couldn't orso to watch it. I have been hoping for this sort of collection for many, many years, più o less since my VHS copies of "The making of Thriller" and "Moonwalker" became obsolete. But not like this.
I have been furious about the media hype and all posthumous "products". I was amaro and saw those involved all as greedy and disrespectful, dancing on MJ's grave for money. But the same hype opened the eyes of a whole new generation of MJ fan and how can I not adore te all? In July 2009 I saw two kids in the street, maximum ten years of age, trying to Moonwalk and spin on their toes. It truly warmed my heart.
I thought the idea of immediately turning MJ into a video game without his approval was an utter disgrace. Now I think of all these kids having a blast dancing to this video game and I see no harm.
When the info started leaking about the "Michael" album I started cringing again. I somehow thought the 10 planned albums were just a hoax, it just sounded too insane to me. Breaking News broke my heart. I was devastated, to me they were plundering MJ's grave. But then Hold My Hand was released and it did have a sparkle of Michael's Amore and magic and I was in tears, tears of happiness and tears of loss. I wish it would just end here. Michael gave us so much, he gave to the point where he was on his bare knees, out of breath and with a broken heart. Why can't it just be enough? Why does the money industry have to turn him into a Lost soul, releasing new material as if he was still here? Yet I see here on this spot how te my fellow fans, are so happy and excited and I don't want to take that away from te and I have no doubt te Amore MJ as much as I do, in your way.
I have been a die-hard fan of MJ since I was 13, defending him in all ways possible. He has had an endless impact on my life and I was inconsolable when he passed. I struggle because deep in my cuore I am so afraid Michael would disapprove of this legacy circus, that he would feel robbed and manipulated. And even so I cave in and consume all this I'm being fed in his memory.
I stare at the snowstorm outside and I feel like a hypocrite.
With my cheeks still blushing from the cold I opened it and seeing the holograms of the cover my smile got even broader. I was happy the casing was made with such quality detail and it brought back many happy memories. Then my smile froze. There was a promotion sticker on the cover. It read: "The Definitive DVD Collection." Definitive. As in never again, ever no more, no further. And so the sadness overtook me again and I couldn't orso to watch it. I have been hoping for this sort of collection for many, many years, più o less since my VHS copies of "The making of Thriller" and "Moonwalker" became obsolete. But not like this.
I have been furious about the media hype and all posthumous "products". I was amaro and saw those involved all as greedy and disrespectful, dancing on MJ's grave for money. But the same hype opened the eyes of a whole new generation of MJ fan and how can I not adore te all? In July 2009 I saw two kids in the street, maximum ten years of age, trying to Moonwalk and spin on their toes. It truly warmed my heart.
I thought the idea of immediately turning MJ into a video game without his approval was an utter disgrace. Now I think of all these kids having a blast dancing to this video game and I see no harm.
When the info started leaking about the "Michael" album I started cringing again. I somehow thought the 10 planned albums were just a hoax, it just sounded too insane to me. Breaking News broke my heart. I was devastated, to me they were plundering MJ's grave. But then Hold My Hand was released and it did have a sparkle of Michael's Amore and magic and I was in tears, tears of happiness and tears of loss. I wish it would just end here. Michael gave us so much, he gave to the point where he was on his bare knees, out of breath and with a broken heart. Why can't it just be enough? Why does the money industry have to turn him into a Lost soul, releasing new material as if he was still here? Yet I see here on this spot how te my fellow fans, are so happy and excited and I don't want to take that away from te and I have no doubt te Amore MJ as much as I do, in your way.
I have been a die-hard fan of MJ since I was 13, defending him in all ways possible. He has had an endless impact on my life and I was inconsolable when he passed. I struggle because deep in my cuore I am so afraid Michael would disapprove of this legacy circus, that he would feel robbed and manipulated. And even so I cave in and consume all this I'm being fed in his memory.
I stare at the snowstorm outside and I feel like a hypocrite.
- 1 empty bottle propofol 200 mg
- 1 pulse monometer
- 1 empty vial lorazepam 4 mg
- 2 empty vials midazolam 10mg
- 1 empty vial propofol 1g/100ml
- 1 black nylon bag
- 1 dark blue costco bag
- 1 light blue canvas bag
- 1 pill bottle with 13 tablets containing 25 mg ephedrine, 200 mg caffeine, 80 mg aspirin
- 4 vials propofol 200mg/20ml
- 2 vials 5 mg flumazenil
- 1 vial lorazepam
- 1 vial lidocane
- 200mg vials of propofol (1 full, 1 1/4 full)
- 1 empty bag I.V. drip of sodium chloride with syringe
- 1 ziplock baggy containing 18 tubes of Benoquin
Note that one of the items seized was a canvas bag. Bodyguard Alberto Alvarez told cops Dr. Murray told him to put vials of propofol in a plastic bag and put that bag in a canvas bag.
I Amore you, Michael :(