i've traced the memory back and finaly after a anno i realize he was just telling the truth.
he told me that he loved me and i freaked out.
ran away, packed up, got ignored and such.
and its because of me and what i did to end this relationship got my head all strung up.
it was the fighting and crying and hiding away that made it all end on that day.
i was hoping he would come back to me,
riding up on that white steed.
now i really wish he would pick me up , hold me tight, tell me everything would be alright.
but i guess i was wrong, its been so long.
and its my own heartbroken loss,
it seems now that it was the distance that killed us.