Chapter 15- The End
Over the successivo few days I revolved everything I did around Andrew. I didn't sleep at all. I knew that if I did and woke up and found that he was dead that I would never, ever forgive myself and I would blame myself. Tom and Abby stayed because they were worried about me. I couldn't blame them. I must have been recitazione obsessive.
I sighed as I around at everyone as we sat in Lily's living room da the fire. It was silent other than the quiet even breathing of Lily, Abby, Tom and I. Andrew wasn't really breathing anymore. It was slightly surreal. He was dead.... I felt the tears coming, but I held them back. I had been emotionally preparing myself to this for the past few days. As soon as Doctor Cullen had left I'd started to prepare myself. I knew I couldn't though. I'd wanted a child for so long now that the fact that he was most likely gone now was cuore wrenching. I felt the sobs errupting from my chest. I saw the others looking at me. I didn't think they were worried because I had broken out crying so much the past few days.
I didn't want to face them. They would only try to comfort me. I didn't want comfort. I wanted Andrew to be alright, alive. I couldn't stand to think that he was dead. It made everything worse. I stood up. Tom stood up after me. He knew from the look on my face, he knew me the best of anyone in the world. I started up the stairs, he followed me. "Esme?" he asked, I knew what he was going to domanda me about so I answered.
"Yes. He's dead....." I sighed finally controlling myself. I felt oddly peaceful considering the circumstances. Perhaps it was the fact that I knew that I wasn't going to live much longer than Andrew. He was the only reason I had stayed alive this long anyway.
"Es... I'm so sorry," Tom frowned and hugged me.
"Tom...." I started to tell him that I was leaving, but I had to think it through for a moment. "I'm..... leaving. I'll probably never see te again. And I just want te to know that you've helped me so much these past few years that there is no way I can repay you. I'm sorry I can't stay. I made a vow to myself that if I was ever set free I would sposta West. te know why. I've told te so many times I can't count, I know it will hurt te but I can't. I know it seems like I'm being completely insensitive to the situation but I can't stand to be here. With all the memories." I hugged him back tightly. "I'm really sorry," I turned and started down the hallway.
"I don't blame te Esme," he detto in a quiet voice. "I know it's hard for you. And I'll miss te but I know te need to go. te deserve it, I'll tell the others. te just leave. It'll be harder for them to understand. I Amore te Es. I always have...." he added awkwardly baciare my cheek. I smiled.
"I know Tom. I always knew. I'll miss te too." I hugged him again and walked down the back steps leaving him standing there. I slipped silently out the back door and started running. I knew it was going to end. I knew a cliff nearby. It was perfect. I got there quickly, I sat on the edge for a few minutes. It broke my cuore to lie to Tom. I was still sobbing. I had decided on this but, it didn't seem so easy now that I was here. I sighed and stood up. I was going to face this sooner o later. I'd rather it be sooner. I put my feet over the edge, closed my eyes and jumped.
Over the successivo few days I revolved everything I did around Andrew. I didn't sleep at all. I knew that if I did and woke up and found that he was dead that I would never, ever forgive myself and I would blame myself. Tom and Abby stayed because they were worried about me. I couldn't blame them. I must have been recitazione obsessive.
I sighed as I around at everyone as we sat in Lily's living room da the fire. It was silent other than the quiet even breathing of Lily, Abby, Tom and I. Andrew wasn't really breathing anymore. It was slightly surreal. He was dead.... I felt the tears coming, but I held them back. I had been emotionally preparing myself to this for the past few days. As soon as Doctor Cullen had left I'd started to prepare myself. I knew I couldn't though. I'd wanted a child for so long now that the fact that he was most likely gone now was cuore wrenching. I felt the sobs errupting from my chest. I saw the others looking at me. I didn't think they were worried because I had broken out crying so much the past few days.
I didn't want to face them. They would only try to comfort me. I didn't want comfort. I wanted Andrew to be alright, alive. I couldn't stand to think that he was dead. It made everything worse. I stood up. Tom stood up after me. He knew from the look on my face, he knew me the best of anyone in the world. I started up the stairs, he followed me. "Esme?" he asked, I knew what he was going to domanda me about so I answered.
"Yes. He's dead....." I sighed finally controlling myself. I felt oddly peaceful considering the circumstances. Perhaps it was the fact that I knew that I wasn't going to live much longer than Andrew. He was the only reason I had stayed alive this long anyway.
"Es... I'm so sorry," Tom frowned and hugged me.
"Tom...." I started to tell him that I was leaving, but I had to think it through for a moment. "I'm..... leaving. I'll probably never see te again. And I just want te to know that you've helped me so much these past few years that there is no way I can repay you. I'm sorry I can't stay. I made a vow to myself that if I was ever set free I would sposta West. te know why. I've told te so many times I can't count, I know it will hurt te but I can't. I know it seems like I'm being completely insensitive to the situation but I can't stand to be here. With all the memories." I hugged him back tightly. "I'm really sorry," I turned and started down the hallway.
"I don't blame te Esme," he detto in a quiet voice. "I know it's hard for you. And I'll miss te but I know te need to go. te deserve it, I'll tell the others. te just leave. It'll be harder for them to understand. I Amore te Es. I always have...." he added awkwardly baciare my cheek. I smiled.
"I know Tom. I always knew. I'll miss te too." I hugged him again and walked down the back steps leaving him standing there. I slipped silently out the back door and started running. I knew it was going to end. I knew a cliff nearby. It was perfect. I got there quickly, I sat on the edge for a few minutes. It broke my cuore to lie to Tom. I was still sobbing. I had decided on this but, it didn't seem so easy now that I was here. I sighed and stood up. I was going to face this sooner o later. I'd rather it be sooner. I put my feet over the edge, closed my eyes and jumped.
1.I'm really afraid of getting hit da cars, like terrified of it. I'm terrified of crossing streets. I'm also very accident-prone... I think people aim for me.
2.I went to do my first big movie when I was 17. I was in South Africa for three and half months, and I was da myself.
3.I was just taking out my trash and I had, like, 300 cans of Diet Coke. It was just like, "How did that happen?" I don't even remember buying them. I also like Cinnamon crostini, pane tostato Crunch. My addictions are pretty much the only things I consume.
4.I've got a terrible memory -- I end up repeating myself quite a lot. The only thing I can remember is that I'm going to repeat myself!
The End of the World Means Save Twilight?
postato da Twilight_News - 16/09/09 at 11:09 am
The Sony Pictures website has a series of sondaggi going on what items should be saved if the world ended in 2012. It’s all part of a PR stunt for their new movie 2012 which, as te may have guessed, is one of those end of the world as its premise type of flicks.
Anyway, Twilight already won as the superiore, in alto movie that people would preserve. It finished just ahead of Moonwalker and stella, star Wars.
Now, the Twilight Saga and The Host are up for contention in the literature category, and need your votes. They are also collecting nominations for music, so invia your preferito artist.
We’re wondering if some Sony executive is banging his/her head against the bacheca because the nominees and winners aren’t a landslide of Sony backed productions
postato da Twilight_News - 16/09/09 at 11:09 am
The Sony Pictures website has a series of sondaggi going on what items should be saved if the world ended in 2012. It’s all part of a PR stunt for their new movie 2012 which, as te may have guessed, is one of those end of the world as its premise type of flicks.
Anyway, Twilight already won as the superiore, in alto movie that people would preserve. It finished just ahead of Moonwalker and stella, star Wars.
Now, the Twilight Saga and The Host are up for contention in the literature category, and need your votes. They are also collecting nominations for music, so invia your preferito artist.
We’re wondering if some Sony executive is banging his/her head against the bacheca because the nominees and winners aren’t a landslide of Sony backed productions