Nothing is harder then losing the one te love. The One person who understands te the most, The one who give anything to keep te sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza and happy even if that means losing their own life to save yours. I learned this the hard way, When a anno fa today, I Lost my parents, my brother and my sister, in a house fire.

May 19 2010 Monday 12:01 am
It's been a anno since I Lost my family, and it hasn't been any easier. I have nightmares about what happen, ever nightmare is the same. It starts off with me being with my family, Everyone is laughing and having a good time, then out of no where, there faces start to melt off It gets really hot and then I wake up. Of course I wasn't there, I was at my Friends house, but I still fill responsible.

I sat up, then looked at the clock it was 12:12 I laid my head back down on my cuscino and closed my eyes in no time I was back asleep, having that same dream over and over aging. I awoke with a headache My aunt knocked on the door. "Naomi, Honey, are te awake?" I got out of the letto and opened the door. Aunt Maggie stepped in side "are te okay sweetie?" I didn't answer I just stood there with my head down. Aunt Maggie stood there for awhile, then turned and left the room.

May 19 2010 Monday 7:00
There was a Knock on the front door, I went down stairs, it was Jane. She looked at me then shook her head. "Are te ever going to stop were that Damn hoodie?" I looked at her, then grabbed my bag and headed out the door. She followed behind me, I opened the car door took out my I-pod and turned it up. Jane stared the car, Then pulled over, I looked at her. "What are te doing?!" I asked.

"Naomi I Amore te and all but te got to stop fill sorry for yourself, there's nothing te can do, it wasn't your fault it's not like te caused the stupid fire." I looked at her, her words cut like Knifes, she looked back at me. I looked away, "Could te just drive." Jane unlocked the doors, "Get out." I looked at her "J-" she shook her head, "Get out"

I got out the car, and Jane drove away, I started to walk to school, but then had to stop because the tears wouldn't stop coming. Some one drove past me, then backed up, they rolled down the window. "Get in" he said, it was Alec the only emo kid at my school. I opened the door and go in. I still had my I-pod in and my tears had turned my eyes red. I could fill his eyes on me, so I kept my head down.

May 19 2010 8:01 am Monday
I went to my home room class and, put my head down, Jane sat beside me. I see te made it to school, I turned away I couldn't let her see how much she hurt me. Jane just tsked at me, then turned to talk to other people. I could fill some ones eyes one me, so I looked up to see who it was, it was Alec, our eyes meet, and I felt something. I couldn't stop looking in to his blue eyes, and he didn't stop looking at me. The teacher came in and Alec turned to the front. I sighed and took my ear phones out.

The rest of the school giorno went da quicker then I'm use too. The whole time in study hall and at lunch i could fill his eyes on me. I meet Jane da my locker, before the last period of the day, She looked at me. "Naomi, I'm sorry I was just Mad, te aren't the only one who Lost some one te Amore lets not forget te aunt, and what about me, I was in Amore with your brother, do te know what his last words were too me?" I didn't answer her, "He told me he loved me."

The campana, bell rung, and I walked away, Jane walked beside me. "Look na na I detto I'm sorry." I looked at her, I nodded, "thanks Jane for what te said, but I'm just not ready to let go." Jane walked away, then turned around "well when te do let me know." She went in to her class, I started to walk to my class, Then out of no where the fuoco alarm rung. Everyone was run out of classes I stopped, I didn't know what to do.

There was shadows all around me, ever thing stared spinning. I sat down, The fuoco alarm kept getting louder and louder. Some one stood in front of me, They grabbed my shoulder and lifted me up. They crawled me like a baby, then we were out side, I looked up, and Alec was above me. His eyes locked on mine. I couldn't pull away, I got Lost in his eyes aging filling that same filling I felt aging. that same strange filling, Alec helped me sit up.

Then I pulled away from under his hand, I didn't mean to come off ungrateful I just don't like when people touch me. Alec scooted away, to give me some air, when he thought i was okay, he came over to me to help me stand. Once the school was cleared, everyone went back in. Jane came rushing over to me, when she saw me. she gave me a hug, "Your okay, i didn't see te come out, so I thought." I pushed away from her, she stopped talking.

Then said, "You know,what Naomi. This is to much, I tried to stay being your friend, but I just can't handle your Behavior, your just to much." She walked away, I could fill his eyes on me I turned around Then looked away quickly.

May 19 2010 3:30 am Monday
Jane left with out me so I stared to walk, It would be 4:30 when I get home. It was about to rain so I put my hoddie on. Then it started to thunder so I took my phone out and was about to Call my aunt, but then Alec pulled up beside me. He opened the door I looked at him, being careful not to met his eyes. Then after a while I got in.

When I got home, I went up stairs and took a doccia my aunt wasn't home yet my phone rung, it was a text from Jane. Hope te made it home okay, If te didn't I'm sorry, I need te to forget my number, don't call me don't text me don't send me and email, because like I detto before. I'm done with you. I put my phone down and knocked over my raiser blade I picked it up and pressed it to my risk.
May 19 2010 Monday 8:08
I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

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