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Chapter 4
I woke up just as the sun was coming up. I rubbed my eyes and ran my fingers through my hair. Knowing that today was going to be the longest giorno of my life, I got up and stretched. da the looks of it, Alice was already up and dressed. And she had my clothes laid out on a chair for me. I got my toiletries together and went to Alice’s bathroom.
After brushing my teeth, I decided to loosen my sore, tired muscles with a hot shower. I stood under the water letting it relax my muscles and wash away some of the tension I was feeling. It even allowed my mind to wander a bit, almost as if I wasn’t really living a nightmare. I allowed myself to feel.
Alice detto that Edward had enjoyed me hugging him like I did. And when he brushed my hair like he did, it was so sweet. It felt like he really did care for me. Could I lean on him now like I have been leaning on Alice? Could I hope to have a future with him like I want? Does he want the same thing?
Almost after finishing that thought, another came into mind. Future. What kind of future am I going to have? I can’t really see one without my parents. How am I going to get through today? I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to go to the church and say goodbye. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to do this. I started crying silently and was thankful that I was in the doccia and that no one was around. I let myself finally feel what I needed and I let the tears fall freely. I was letting my parents go. I was letting them go and have peace.
I must have Lost track of time because I soon heard a knock on the bathroom door.
“Yes? Come in. Is that te Alice?”
“It is sweetie. How are te doing this morning?”
“I am okay, but I have had some time to think in here. The doccia has helped me a lot. Thank te for the dress, da the way. It’s perfect.”
“You’re welcome. I was sent up to tell te that breakfast is done for you. We’ve all eaten already.”
“Okay, I’ll be down in a few minutes.”
After Alice left I washed my hair. It seems as though Alice even remembered my preferito fragola shampoo. I got out of the shower, dried off, and then got dressed. I brushed out my hair and then went downstairs.
I had just gotten down the stairs and into the Cullen’s living room, when I saw Edward sitting on the couch. He was watching the news. I hesitated a bit.
“Oh… um… hi Edward.”
“Good morning Bella. Did te sleep well?”
“I did. Thank you. I’ sorry, but I didn’t expect to see te down here. Silly though, isn’t it? I mean te live here,” I detto with a nervous laugh. Why did he always have to make me so nervous?
“It’s okay. You’ve been through a lot. Would te like to have a seat?” He patted the divano successivo to him.
“Um… sure. Thanks.” I sat down successivo to him. Even though I have been in Amore with him since forever I’ve never been able to think straight around him. You’d think that in time that would wear off. Which reminds me… “Alice told me last night that te could read minds. Is that true?”
“Yes. Alice did mention that. And yes, it is true. And like she told you, I try to tune out most people. Life is easier that way.”
“She also detto that te might be upset that I knew. I hope that te don’t get mad at her. It really did just ship out and I won’t tell anyone.”
He laughed a little, “Bella, I am not upset. How many people would believe it anyway? But I am surprised that te didn’t ask if I could read your mind. Aren’t te curious if I can?”
“Of course I am, but I didn’t want to ask. But since te brought it up, can te read my mind? Do te know what I’m thinking?”
A crooked smile formed on his face. He closed his eyes and looked like he was concentrating on something very hard. And then all of a sudden his eyes opened and he looked over at me. I just kept staring at him. He was so perfect. I never have been able to see any flaws on his face, o any other part of him for that matter.
“No. I still can not read your mind.”
“What? You’ve tried before? Actually tried to? When?” I was nervous all of a sudden. Why would he try to read my mind? That meant that he wanted to know something and on più than one occasion.
He stared at me with such an intense gaze that I had to look away from him. “I’ve tried many times, Bella. And it’s always been the same thing. Nothing. te are always a closed book to me. I can never hear you. I can hear everyone else except you.”
“Oh… I’m sorry.”
At that Edward laughed. “You are sorry that I can’t invade your mind and hear your private thoughts?”
“If it upsets you, then yes.”
“Bella, I don’t know if I will ever understand you. But we need te to eat so we can get te to the church. Come on, I’ll go with you.”
Oh right… the funeral. I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to look into my parents face. I don’t want to go through this day. I was the one who encouraged them to go on the date. It was my fault, why did I do this?
“Will te stay with me at the church?” I asked.
“Of course. I will be there for te as long as te need me,” Edward said.
*****
After the funeral, I rode back in silence, clinging to Alice. Edward was still holding my hand. Carlisle and Esme we driving the three of us back to their house, while Rosalie and Emmett followed in Edward’s Volvo. I don’t remember much of anything, it was all a blur of “I’m so sorry for your loss” and “I’m so sorry Bella”. I remember looking into the faces of my parents for a diviso, spalato secondo and then I collapsed into Edward’s arms. He carried me back to my chair and there I sat listening to the words of the priest. I sat there not really knowing that time was passing. Edward was true to his word and he stayed with me. Alice was with me too, holding onto my hand. After awhile I couldn’t cry anymore and I just sat there like a statue.
Now on the way back in the car, no one detto anything. I was holding onto Alice like my life depended on it. Maybe it did. Maybe if I let her go, I would be letting go of me too. I had already left a part of me back there in the church with my parents. My family. I had no family now. I was orphaned and I did it to myself. I did this it was my fault.
The successivo thing I knew we were back at the house. Carlisle had just turned the car off. He turned back to me to see if I was okay. Was I okay? Was I ever going to be okay again?
“I’ll carry her in,” Edward said.
“No,” I detto in barely a whisper. “I can walk.”
But Edward didn’t even let me try. He picked me up in his strong arms and walked with me into their house. In a way, I was grateful. I don’t know if I could have made it da myself. I wrapped my arms around his neck and put my head on his shoulder. It felt very comfortable.
When Edward and I got into the house, he started to the stairs, but I did not want to be alone. “Edward? Can I stay downstairs? I don’t want to be alone. Can I stay with you?”
He turned back around and went towards the couch. “Of course te can. And I will stay with you. Do te need anything?”
“No, I just want to stay her like this with you. If feels nice to be held.”
“Sure,” he said. I just leaned back into him and he kept his arms wrapped around me. da then the rest of his family came in. Esme and Carlisle came in first and they went upstairs to Carlisle’s study. successivo Alice came in and sat in a chair successivo to the couch, she turned on the television. And lastly came Emmett and Rosalie, they were quiet and detto that they were going to go upstairs.
I listened to the sounds coming from the Televisione but didn’t hear anything that was being said. I just sat there; nothing was coming through my barrier. I was Lost in my thoughts. Everyone at the funeral was so supportive, but they were giving me so many looks of pity. I don’t want pity. I didn’t need any of that. I was so filled with guilt that I didn’t notice when I started crying again.
Edward didn’t say anything either. Sooner than I wanted to I feel asleep sitting on the couch, curled up successivo to him, crying myself to sleep. I didn’t feel the blanket slip over me and I didn’t feel anyone slip a cuscino under my head.
That was the first night that I have ever had a dream of Edward. He was standing there at the very edge of the forest, not moving. It was a bright, clear night. The moon was shining high and bright in the sky. Edward was white as marble as he stood there staring back at me.
“What are te doing out here so late, Bella? Do te know that it isn’t sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza for te out here?”
I shook my head no. “No, what is out here that will hurt me?”
He pulled his lips back into a smile, his teeth glinting like stars in the dark night. It was a little frightening, but I would never be afraid of him. No, not when he’s done everything he could to help me when my parents died. How could he hurt anyone?
“I am out here. Aren’t te afraid of me?”
“Why would I be scared of you? I could never be scared of you.”
“Are te sure about that?” At that he crouched down and made a noise deep in his throat that I’ve never heard before and sprang straight up in the air and landed right in front of me. He grabbed me around the shoulders with both hands and tipped me backwards, his face an inch from my face. “Are te still sure about that?”
“I am not afraid of you.”
He let me go and I fell to the ground. When I looked back up, he was gone and nowhere in sight.
With that I woke up with a start. What was that?
A/N: Thank all of te who have taken the time to read my story and those who want to see more. I am so happy that te enjoy it. If te could, please fill out a review. Even if it is just to say keep up the good work. Thanks!!!
Chapter 4
I woke up just as the sun was coming up. I rubbed my eyes and ran my fingers through my hair. Knowing that today was going to be the longest giorno of my life, I got up and stretched. da the looks of it, Alice was already up and dressed. And she had my clothes laid out on a chair for me. I got my toiletries together and went to Alice’s bathroom.
After brushing my teeth, I decided to loosen my sore, tired muscles with a hot shower. I stood under the water letting it relax my muscles and wash away some of the tension I was feeling. It even allowed my mind to wander a bit, almost as if I wasn’t really living a nightmare. I allowed myself to feel.
Alice detto that Edward had enjoyed me hugging him like I did. And when he brushed my hair like he did, it was so sweet. It felt like he really did care for me. Could I lean on him now like I have been leaning on Alice? Could I hope to have a future with him like I want? Does he want the same thing?
Almost after finishing that thought, another came into mind. Future. What kind of future am I going to have? I can’t really see one without my parents. How am I going to get through today? I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to go to the church and say goodbye. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to do this. I started crying silently and was thankful that I was in the doccia and that no one was around. I let myself finally feel what I needed and I let the tears fall freely. I was letting my parents go. I was letting them go and have peace.
I must have Lost track of time because I soon heard a knock on the bathroom door.
“Yes? Come in. Is that te Alice?”
“It is sweetie. How are te doing this morning?”
“I am okay, but I have had some time to think in here. The doccia has helped me a lot. Thank te for the dress, da the way. It’s perfect.”
“You’re welcome. I was sent up to tell te that breakfast is done for you. We’ve all eaten already.”
“Okay, I’ll be down in a few minutes.”
After Alice left I washed my hair. It seems as though Alice even remembered my preferito fragola shampoo. I got out of the shower, dried off, and then got dressed. I brushed out my hair and then went downstairs.
I had just gotten down the stairs and into the Cullen’s living room, when I saw Edward sitting on the couch. He was watching the news. I hesitated a bit.
“Oh… um… hi Edward.”
“Good morning Bella. Did te sleep well?”
“I did. Thank you. I’ sorry, but I didn’t expect to see te down here. Silly though, isn’t it? I mean te live here,” I detto with a nervous laugh. Why did he always have to make me so nervous?
“It’s okay. You’ve been through a lot. Would te like to have a seat?” He patted the divano successivo to him.
“Um… sure. Thanks.” I sat down successivo to him. Even though I have been in Amore with him since forever I’ve never been able to think straight around him. You’d think that in time that would wear off. Which reminds me… “Alice told me last night that te could read minds. Is that true?”
“Yes. Alice did mention that. And yes, it is true. And like she told you, I try to tune out most people. Life is easier that way.”
“She also detto that te might be upset that I knew. I hope that te don’t get mad at her. It really did just ship out and I won’t tell anyone.”
He laughed a little, “Bella, I am not upset. How many people would believe it anyway? But I am surprised that te didn’t ask if I could read your mind. Aren’t te curious if I can?”
“Of course I am, but I didn’t want to ask. But since te brought it up, can te read my mind? Do te know what I’m thinking?”
A crooked smile formed on his face. He closed his eyes and looked like he was concentrating on something very hard. And then all of a sudden his eyes opened and he looked over at me. I just kept staring at him. He was so perfect. I never have been able to see any flaws on his face, o any other part of him for that matter.
“No. I still can not read your mind.”
“What? You’ve tried before? Actually tried to? When?” I was nervous all of a sudden. Why would he try to read my mind? That meant that he wanted to know something and on più than one occasion.
He stared at me with such an intense gaze that I had to look away from him. “I’ve tried many times, Bella. And it’s always been the same thing. Nothing. te are always a closed book to me. I can never hear you. I can hear everyone else except you.”
“Oh… I’m sorry.”
At that Edward laughed. “You are sorry that I can’t invade your mind and hear your private thoughts?”
“If it upsets you, then yes.”
“Bella, I don’t know if I will ever understand you. But we need te to eat so we can get te to the church. Come on, I’ll go with you.”
Oh right… the funeral. I didn’t want to go. I didn’t want to look into my parents face. I don’t want to go through this day. I was the one who encouraged them to go on the date. It was my fault, why did I do this?
“Will te stay with me at the church?” I asked.
“Of course. I will be there for te as long as te need me,” Edward said.
*****
After the funeral, I rode back in silence, clinging to Alice. Edward was still holding my hand. Carlisle and Esme we driving the three of us back to their house, while Rosalie and Emmett followed in Edward’s Volvo. I don’t remember much of anything, it was all a blur of “I’m so sorry for your loss” and “I’m so sorry Bella”. I remember looking into the faces of my parents for a diviso, spalato secondo and then I collapsed into Edward’s arms. He carried me back to my chair and there I sat listening to the words of the priest. I sat there not really knowing that time was passing. Edward was true to his word and he stayed with me. Alice was with me too, holding onto my hand. After awhile I couldn’t cry anymore and I just sat there like a statue.
Now on the way back in the car, no one detto anything. I was holding onto Alice like my life depended on it. Maybe it did. Maybe if I let her go, I would be letting go of me too. I had already left a part of me back there in the church with my parents. My family. I had no family now. I was orphaned and I did it to myself. I did this it was my fault.
The successivo thing I knew we were back at the house. Carlisle had just turned the car off. He turned back to me to see if I was okay. Was I okay? Was I ever going to be okay again?
“I’ll carry her in,” Edward said.
“No,” I detto in barely a whisper. “I can walk.”
But Edward didn’t even let me try. He picked me up in his strong arms and walked with me into their house. In a way, I was grateful. I don’t know if I could have made it da myself. I wrapped my arms around his neck and put my head on his shoulder. It felt very comfortable.
When Edward and I got into the house, he started to the stairs, but I did not want to be alone. “Edward? Can I stay downstairs? I don’t want to be alone. Can I stay with you?”
He turned back around and went towards the couch. “Of course te can. And I will stay with you. Do te need anything?”
“No, I just want to stay her like this with you. If feels nice to be held.”
“Sure,” he said. I just leaned back into him and he kept his arms wrapped around me. da then the rest of his family came in. Esme and Carlisle came in first and they went upstairs to Carlisle’s study. successivo Alice came in and sat in a chair successivo to the couch, she turned on the television. And lastly came Emmett and Rosalie, they were quiet and detto that they were going to go upstairs.
I listened to the sounds coming from the Televisione but didn’t hear anything that was being said. I just sat there; nothing was coming through my barrier. I was Lost in my thoughts. Everyone at the funeral was so supportive, but they were giving me so many looks of pity. I don’t want pity. I didn’t need any of that. I was so filled with guilt that I didn’t notice when I started crying again.
Edward didn’t say anything either. Sooner than I wanted to I feel asleep sitting on the couch, curled up successivo to him, crying myself to sleep. I didn’t feel the blanket slip over me and I didn’t feel anyone slip a cuscino under my head.
That was the first night that I have ever had a dream of Edward. He was standing there at the very edge of the forest, not moving. It was a bright, clear night. The moon was shining high and bright in the sky. Edward was white as marble as he stood there staring back at me.
“What are te doing out here so late, Bella? Do te know that it isn’t sicuro, cassetta di sicurezza for te out here?”
I shook my head no. “No, what is out here that will hurt me?”
He pulled his lips back into a smile, his teeth glinting like stars in the dark night. It was a little frightening, but I would never be afraid of him. No, not when he’s done everything he could to help me when my parents died. How could he hurt anyone?
“I am out here. Aren’t te afraid of me?”
“Why would I be scared of you? I could never be scared of you.”
“Are te sure about that?” At that he crouched down and made a noise deep in his throat that I’ve never heard before and sprang straight up in the air and landed right in front of me. He grabbed me around the shoulders with both hands and tipped me backwards, his face an inch from my face. “Are te still sure about that?”
“I am not afraid of you.”
He let me go and I fell to the ground. When I looked back up, he was gone and nowhere in sight.
With that I woke up with a start. What was that?
This is my Twilight book. Number seven! (Behind Twilight, Forever Dawn, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, and Midnight Sun) This book is mainly in Renesmee's POV and a little of Jacob's. Enjoy!
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Oh, how I wish I were a guanto so that I might touch that cheek.
Romeo and Juliet, The Balcony Scene
PREFACE
It was scarier than anything I could've ever imagined. And, honestly, I had never expected it to come to this. I had wanted this in the begininng but never thought it would work. But it had, and now I understood my mother's story. Only this was much worse.
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Oh, how I wish I were a guanto so that I might touch that cheek.
Romeo and Juliet, The Balcony Scene
PREFACE
It was scarier than anything I could've ever imagined. And, honestly, I had never expected it to come to this. I had wanted this in the begininng but never thought it would work. But it had, and now I understood my mother's story. Only this was much worse.
Hi, I'm Isabella cigno but te can call me Bella. I live in Forks, with my father Charlie. I've lived in this tiny town my whole life. I know every corner, every bush, every albero like the back of my hand.
My best friend is Jacob Black. He lives a few blocks away from me, on La Push Drive. We've known each other since we were kids, and we've always been close. Never left each other for anyone. Always been each others rock. When my mum left, he was my shoulder to cry on. When his mum died, I was at his house 24/7. Nothing has ever come between us. That was, until a new family moved into town, who called themselves the Cullens.
comment, tell me what te think so i know if its worth finishing!!!
My best friend is Jacob Black. He lives a few blocks away from me, on La Push Drive. We've known each other since we were kids, and we've always been close. Never left each other for anyone. Always been each others rock. When my mum left, he was my shoulder to cry on. When his mum died, I was at his house 24/7. Nothing has ever come between us. That was, until a new family moved into town, who called themselves the Cullens.
comment, tell me what te think so i know if its worth finishing!!!
